Out of control snacking confession

I don't know the exact time or item that did this to me, but I must have eaten something that triggered me to get out of control. Now first off, I am not gaining weight, just not losing it. I feel like over the past 2 weeks I have been out of my senses. I have eaten junk food and more portion sizes than I should. I have no real excuse and I am not trying to make one. I just don't understand why after 3 1/2 months of doing so well I would allow myself to cheat. I went out of town for work last week and ended up snacking on peanuts like crazy, had caffeine, and even ate a couple of those 100 calorie packs. Then last night I caught myself in my husbands bag of carmel popcorn. I only ate a handful but what was I thinking? So far I haven't dumped and I wish I had. I need a form of punishment to keep me going straight. I have been in a stall for about 3 weeks now and I am the type of person that seems to have them quite often. I have never lost consitintely and I feel like I get upset about that. I will stay at the same weight for almost a month then lose maybe a pound or two. Thats when I am following instructions. I am just wondering if this surgery will work for me. I am not seeing results that most others see and I am really bitter. I know we all lose differently but I am way behind where I should be even for being a light weight. I have attended all the support groups available in my area since the surgery and I feel like I do things right. I exercise at least 3 times a week and I run so I get a good workout. I guess what I am looking for is to make this my confession and clean the slate. When I own up to my mistakes I usually make them right so here I am putting myself out there that I have not been a good girl and I feel awful. Today I have been better and not snacked but I find my downfall is that I can snack and do quite often. I struggle only eating 3 times a day. I have even thrown in a protein bar twice a day and lately its just not enough. I just wonder, should I have had brain surgery instead of bypass? Maybe I would have succeeded better! Anyway my biggest fear is that I won't lose the weight and if I do I will gain it all back. I just don't think I have what it takes to win this battle.

First...don't beat yourself up! That just makes a person depressed...and makes them want to give up and turn to food.

If only they could do a brain transplant when they do WLS, huh? But they can't...and we are only human. So..to eat is human...to 'play by the rules' is the road to success. You know you've been munching. Chances are great, you also haven't been getting in your water or exercising...right? You know what you've been told by your surgeon & nuts...you don't need us telling you that.

We do all lose at different rates. Stalls can be from not doing what we are suppose to..or even not enough..but also just because your body has to have some catch-up time. I know you don't want to hear this..but relatively speaking, you are a light-weight (right at ~100 lbs to lose total). The less you have to lose, typically, the slower it comes off.

just do what you are suppose to do and the scale will move again. Increase your PEW (Protein Exercise Water)...and stay in touch with your support people...US!

Best wishes!

Sherri

Glad to see you found us here on the Indiana Board.  You will find an awesome support group here!  Like I said in my email to you, I could have made your post if I only would have had the balls to admit it.  About a month ago I found myself in your shoes.  I was eating junk daily, grazing and overeating, and boy did I feel like crap about myself.  After about two weeks of bad behaviors I decided to pick myself up by the boot straps and get it together.  I didn't have surgery just to sabotoge myself. 

I am also a slow loser, but at least the scale is moving in the right direction.  Keep you chin up and hang in there, this too shall pass!

Jeannie