SHH!!! Don't tell anyone, but I'm NERVOUS!!!

Thanks everyone for the comments on my last post...I feel really supported, and its great. I thank God that I have a community of people that know how I am feeling!
So, my surgery is Monday, at first it was at 10, but now it is at noon, which is o.k., just gives me more time to think about it.  I've known my date for a month and antil now it was like, "no biggie, whatever" but now, man, oh, man!
I am flipping out, but it's not about what most people think.   In my life, I have failed at EVERYTHING, and I am not even kidding.  I am 20 years old and am still considered a college Freshman, not because i am not intelligent, but because I just get too overwhelmed, so I give up.
I am so scared that I am going to do this with my post-op diet.  Idon't want to fail.  I have lived my life the "girl with the pretty face"  who has always been told that "I'd be really hot if I lost wait".   I don't want to be "that girl" anymore.  I want to be me, because I have alwasy been so afraid of being the person I really am because I don't want attention on myself that I can't control. 
So, amidst my ramblings, I believe there was a mention of me being nervous, and everyone at my support groups and nutrition calss say" good for you! I wish I would have done it at your age" but, they never say "its ok to be nervous, its natural"
So, please, if you would, just let me know that I am having normal feelings!!

With His Grace,
Katie

instead of looking at this.. what if i fail....as this is the 1st time you will complete something...do it to its fullest....my gosh girl you are getting an amazing tool...you have amazing support....for the 1st time in your life....let s get control over your life.....i am here with you....OHers are here for you....lets rock this out! you are doin this to be healthy...to have a long happy life.....monday will be the 1st day of your new life...forget about everything before that....lets start this journey on a clean slate......big hugs.....you are so young you will strive with this.....

hey babycakes.....its completely normal to be nervous........emotions are flying everywhere....just remember you have researched this....are well informed.....and this is the decision you have made to get control back over your life.....i have full confidence in you....you will be in my prayers....if you wanna call and talk i will send you  my number! or send me yours....

big hugs and love and can 't wait to see you on the losers side!!!

hugs
Kim

Hi Katie! 

I'm sending (BIG HUGS) your way right now!  I'm sure you're having every kind of emotional imaginable...and that is okay....perfectly normal!  Maybe you can alter your perspective a bit about your failures.   I went from high school straight to college.  Flunked out my first year...bigtime!   I was devastated!  I didn't realize it then, but now looking back I wasn't possibly ready for that type of commitment.  God saw me down a different path.  I am now 36 and next month I will finish my Master's Degree.  Yes!  I have grown so much through the good Lord's grace.  Life after WLS to me is not a pass/fail deal.   I know that I am not perfect and I will not be perfect when it comes to using my tool.  Unfortunately (I'm pretty certain I will dump)---hopefully only once!  Ha.  But if I do, I will not see myself or the process as failing.  I will not let one negative or screw-up moment determine my future..  I am learning there are many peaks and valleys in this journey, just as in life. 
WLS for me is one of the most difficult things I will ever tackle.  We'll just have to take it slow. 
Katie, you can do this.  This is a great time for you to take care of you!  You have the support of this entire board.  Everyone I have ever encountered here has been wonderful and supportive.  Check in here often. 
Will be saying a prayer and sending positive thoughts your way this week. 

"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength."  Phillipians

Katie...being nervous is normal.  I never had surg. before this one and was almost in tears until right before surg.  Dr. Jones came in and patted my hand and said " I will take very good care of you and we will do this together"  I suddenly felt very peaceful and calm.  She has great skills and bedside manner.....You will do great.....DEB

Katie,

I had never succeeded at a diet. I knew people who had yoyo dieted a long time, but I had never even gotten the chance to yoyo. I told myself though, that I had never failed at anything I REALLY tried at in my life. And that I was going to REALLY try at this. I won't lie to  you. People do fail WLS. I know I woman through work that lost, but gained back most of it. I let that be motivation to me, that I am not going to let that happen to me. (Particularly because my insurance policy clearly spells out only one wls procedure in a lifetime. I get one chance at this only.) You can do this too. We have faith in you.

Katie,

Hey, I'd worry about you if you *weren't* nervous! That having been said, I'm confident that you will be fine, and that you will have rousing success with your surgery! I had a bit of a negative attitude at first, you know, I'm going to be the FIRST person ever to not lose weight with RNY surgery! Well, it has gone better than I ever imagined. I average about 4 lbs. a week in weight loss.

You will do GREAT. Keep us posted!

Jenny

You are okay...I wasn't nervous, though..I was excitied, I just couldn't stand it.
It's okay to be nervous....this is NOT and easy Journet, by far. It will be a challenge...so be prepared for the ride....
shanna

You are going to do fine.  Nerves are normal.  But just focus on the results.  It can be a challenge at times.  But it is soooo worth it.  I am so proud of you for doing it at your age.  You will have an amazing journey.  You will be wearing all those cute clothes they make for young people that only the "normal" sizes are made.  I was more excited than nervous but this was my 13th surgery in life and I have been Obese for 23 years.  So, I think it all just has to do with where you are in life.  You will be excited when you get on the losers bench and see the changes.

Best of luck to you and welcome aboard.  Many prayers coming your way!

Tracy

You'll do great.  I'm nervous as all get out as well, but I am trying to just focus on the positives and keep my mind occupied till tomorrow morning.  I'll see ya walking laps tomorrow!