I hate this!!

As the time draws closer I've been 2nd geussing  My decision on having surgery. I'm sure a lot of you have done/ or doing the same.  But I had to do something as simple this morning as take the pool pump out and put it up for the winter. It was only 2 lines to loosen and pull it out from under my deck. Simple huh! NOT! I got  down easy but getting up sucked. Then I spilled something on the floor and had to wipe it up . SUCKED!!!!
I'm so ready to get this weight  off I really do hate it. It's scary to think about eating right afterwards to keep from puking or whatever.
But I do see this as a 2nd chance to eat right and watch my portions so that when I'm able to eat more later in life I keep my weight off!
I't just nerve racking waiting for the 31st to get her it's so close but yet it seems to take so long.
I guess this is kind of like ranting huh! Venting!!!

As someone who is 3 months post op I sure felt that way too and mine got scheduled so fast that it made my head spin. I was wanting to put the breaks on and say "WHOA" but, I remembered that I had done all of my investigating and homework into this procedure and I was positive when I made the appointment so I acted like I was jumping into water for the first time. I held my breath and then they knocked my ass out and when I woke up it was over with. I have lost 56 lbs and my body is already so much better. I have fought some issues like "dumping" but, mostly everything has went really well. And it's only getting better.
You will be so glad to have this done, you will be a new person soon enough.
Welcome to the losers bench!!

Just think though...in a month you will be able to do the same thing (well not the pool thing obviously) and notice how much easier it ws the second time! You are only a week away as of tomorrow! Yes, alot of people have second thoughts. Some cancel it...some continue on and do it. Its up to you to decide what is best for you!  Try this...re-read you first post on here and see if you still feel that way.......
To me it was like wedding jitters.....well...since we divorced 7 years later that may not be a good thing to compare to! Lol

Second guessing and having doubts is part of the process.  I had mixed emotions  right up until the time the nurse asked me if I would like something to settle my nerves right before surgery.  Of course I said yes and don't remember much after that.  I was full of remorse the first month after surgery, but now 3 months later....I am thrilled with the surgery.  I have thrown up a few times especially early on, however its not like throwin up pre op remember your stomach is much smaller therefore so is your puke lol ....ewww I know,  but its the truth lol.  Hang in there and keep your head up, it will all be a distant memory soon.

Jeannie

When I was waiting for my surgery I remember how everything that I thought was just a "simple" physical task that I had done times before suddenly became.... well.... the **** to do. I think because we know "relief" is in the works and so everything becomes bigger then what it is. Both the cons and the pros. Yep, it's normal. Yep, we've all gone through it. I kinda view it as part of the right of passage for WLS. So that things like that stick in your brain and remind you to never get off track and weigh that much EVER AGAIN! Hang in there, it's not much longer and you'll reap the benefits/rewards. 

 

Blessings
Jodi 

Rant baby Rant!!! OMGoodness!! YOu have the right!! You are making the biggest (and the best) decision in your life... besides marriage and having children... But this decision is JUST FOR YOU!! How often have you actually done something JUST FOR YOU???

In a few months you will be coming on here describing how you have made the best decision in your life and will be strutting your stuff!!!

It is scarey... it is actually some work... and tough sometimes when you THINK you are all by yourself in this... but you are not alone!! You have friends who care and help close if you need it!!

Personally... I would do it again in an instant... Be well my friend be well...

Linda Kay

wasn't sure how to get started, had my surgery on march 12,2008 have lost 127 lbs so far i only want to lose 3 mre, i know i will still be considered over weight at 155lbs but that's the weight i feel good at, does anyone else who had the y surgery, struggle almost daily with staying away for the good stuff like chocolate? it's  a daily battle for me and i don't have the dumping syndrome so that's no help. can't go to support group meetings as i work full time come straight home to care for my mom, until i get up and go to work the next day, just feel kind of lost out here, i will be honest i wish i had the dumping syndrome because when i ate the chocolate chip cookie last night it would of made me sick, just wondered if anyone one else deals with these kind of struggles.

Robin,
 I don't dump very easy either.. and yep the choc chip cookie calls my name and sometimes I give in... It has been over 3 years for me and some things instantly make me sick like a tablespoon of hubbys icecream. I can eat 2 cookies but not 3... THANK GOD prior to surgery I could eat the whole dozen... I cant drink Starbucks hot chocolate.. I get the runs now...

Yep there are fattening things I can eat... and sometimes do but the surgery was a success because I am not in a size 28 anylonger. I can breathe and walk and chase my grandkids... I am happy.. I am just glad that I have a few issues but can still enjoy a few things if I want them... Choosing NOT TO WANT them is the hard part.. but looking in the mirror and seeing the results is worth it.. stay online and visit us often... it will help keep you focused on your goal... it does me...

Linda Kay

thanks it sure helps to know that i am not the only one, i kind of wondered, i eat the one cookie and i am satisified where before the surgery one would not cut it, my other concern is, when i had the 6 mo postop they said i was severly malnutritioned and put me back on one protien shake a day, so my day consisits of one protein shake, one cheese stick for breakfast, one cheese stick for lunch sometimes a graham cracker, a wendy's small chili for supper and then popcorn later in the evening they said that popcorn was ok, how do i be sure i am either getting enough calories or too many? i sure appreciate all the help.

Hello,
As 2ND guessing tonight 2 years ago that's all I did till the minute I walked into the OR. Today, 224 pounds later my body loves me !!!! Vent Away, that's why we are here. Blessings, Gail 

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