Feeling impatient

Well, it's only been three weeks since I decided to have RNY. Yes, I know it takes a bit of time to get things started. However, I will say that I do not make decisions lightly(sometimes quickly-but never lightly)and once I do decide, I have a tendancy to want things done NOW. In September of 2006, I had emergency cardiac stent placement after a cardiolite test showed that all three of my arteries were blocked.At age 32, I had an 80%, a 70%, and a 50% blockage. One month later, I had my second stent put in. At first, I was just grateful that it was caught before I died. However, after a few months, I began to get angry. This anger stemmed from 20 years of low fat/no fat diets. Yes, 20 years! I was born with phase 4 hypertriglyeridemia. At age 6 mos my triglyerides were in the 500s. My wonderful mother did what she could to stop the cholestorol madness, but nothing work...and because of renal birth defect I could not take statins when they arrived on the scene, in my early teens. The weight began to pile on when I was about 9. I never ate very much. I'm the last of 12 kids, raised by a working widowed mother. I was the last to get served at meals, following eight growing teen boys. There just wasn't much left. I never complained and I never felt denied. By age 13, I weighed in at 187lbs at 4'11". There was no explaination except that I hated exercise. I was always tired...and exercise actually caused me physical pain. Noone believed me. I was called lazy and accused of stealing food, and sneaking sweets. Sweets were not kept in our house because my mom couldn't afford them and she was a health nut(in a pratical kind of way). But my siblings blamed me for the lack of snackage in our house. It hurt emotionally, but I just stuffed it down....sometimes I think I lived on a steady diet of sadness, self-disgust and shame. By age 15, I had enough. One day after a boy had spit a wad of phlem on me during gym class, I went home and devised a plan. I went vegetarian, and began a grueling exercise regimine that consisted of 3 to 4 hours of exercise a day. It worked, but not as quickly as it should have. Finally, at age 17 I weighed 125lbs. Six months later I weighed 103. it was about this time that PCOS started showing up. The docs put me on the pill and my weight ballooned again to 140lbs, in three weeks. I went off the pill and lost some of the weight. I stayed that size for a few years, but after the birth of my son, I was again put on the pill and this time it was worse- a 75 lb gain in two months. I went off the pill agian and lost some of the weight. I have been on every diet known to man in the last 13 years. I now weigh 232. i have a BMI of 42. I have PCOS, high triglycerides, high cholestorol,insulin resistance, and coronary artery disease. I am dying. This surgery is my only hope, but at least it's hope. I had just about run out. pray for me.

I know that feeling of being impatient! Hopefully, everything will move along quickly for you. Linda Vicory

I understand the inpatience. I had it also the first time I applied it seemed to take forever, I rushed home everyday to check the mail. Please be careful & don't get depressed during this. Take care, Donna

Thanx ladies. I won't get depressed and I'm really trying to keep everything in perspective. God Bless. Angie