Having a bad week/good week...

The good news is that I am up to 70 pounds gone. I feel great about that. I go back to see Dr. Inman and dietcian in July. They say I'm doing fine. The bad news is that my daycare lady is in intensive care since Wednesday. She has been very sick lately. This is hard in two ways. 1) She has been with us for almost 6 years. She is like family, and I'm very worried about her. Losing her this time of year would be especially hard because March is when my daughter died. 2) We have been scrambling this week for childcare. It's hard. I can't stay home much, and neither can my hubby. I can't lose my job. We need the $$$. I am afraid we're going to have to look for other childcare, and that breaks my heart. I feel like a traitor or something. But I know I have to have assured daycare everyday. I will still by friends with the other lady. I don't know why I'm posting this. I guess to just get the feelings out of my head, and maybe get a little support. Linda Vicory