Ch Ch Ch Changes

It has taken a few days for me to get the courage to post this. Mainly because I'm going thru some emotional stuff from loosing all this weight. Though I am proud of myself for taking the courageous step and having this surgery, following my new eating rules, and watching myself fit into nicer styles of clothing - I have a very hard time looking in the mirror. It's weird. I use to not want to look in the mirror because then I had to be honest to myself on how awful I had looked by allowing myself to become severly morbidly obese. Now I can't stand to look in the mirror because I don't recognize who I'm looking at. It's not the same face, body structure, or appearance. I still feel like the fat chic in the skinny chic's world. This as brought a great deal of emotional stress and depression. I'm in therapy. I'm working on this. But sometimes I don't want to live in this wls world that I've stuck myself in this past year. But I don't know what kind of world I want to be in. I'm that confused. Stuck. Or Whatever it is you might call it. However - back to what has taken me a few days to post. I've made goal. I've lost exactly 100 lbs in a little less then a year. Thanks Everyone Here For Any and All Support You've Ever Given Me Jodi

CONGRATULATIONS Jo!!!! 100 pounds and goal in less than a year is GREAT!!!! Hopefully therapy will help you with getting your thoughts and head in line with your new body. I have read posts from others and evidentally it takes longer for our heads to catch up to our new bodies. Hang in there. blessings to you, Connie 357/185/160

Way to go!!! It is very hard to recognize those changes in ourselves! I am glad that you are seeking some help for this. Be proud of your accomplishments on this journey, not only for having WLS but also to being able to admit this new uncertainity and going forward with seeking the help needed to get you totally on track! You look amazing and are an inspiration to many, please don't forget that! Love ya! Big Hugz coming your way!!! HUGZ DAWN

Jodi, That is fantastic sweetie that you are at goal & a new member of the century club! Congrats!! I know it can be very difficult adjusting the the 'new me'. We do give up alot to get here..but we also gain alot too. We lose the food, but gain our health. Because I can look in the mirror and see the difference, I've been able to get past the complications I've had and know that I made the right decision. I still have my moments though...and probably always will. You have been and are a wonderful roll model for lap banders. You are the most successful lap bander I know. Sometimes, helping others can give you a sence of being 'worth it all' too. That's how I look at my endo's. It was worthg going through them cause I have a wealth of experience I can share. I'm glad you are getting therapy to help you understand and accept the new you. Remember though sweetie, we all care about you no matter what! huggs, Sherri

Jo,,, I'm so happy for you reaching your 100 lbs goal.. You really should be proud of yourself, and the new world that you have created becuase of you. I can't say I understand, being I'm still the fat chic in the scenario, and can't wait to be the skinny chic. I am sure there is alot of emotional stuff involved and we are all here for you,,, if you ever want to talk..... And hang in there, sometimes you have to think back to remember why you did go through this surgery. It has to be so much nicer to be the skinny,, and most importantly the healthy chic!! Just think of all the extra time on this beautiful earth, you have given yourself,, and all the extra memories you have given to those who love and care about you!!!! Heather

You are doing wonderful with the weight loss. We often don't talk about how it effects us emotionally. It's really good that you are talking about it and also seeking help dealing with those emotions. You can't beat yourself up about the past, just get to know the new you and have a blast doing so. I'm wishing the best for you, you'll be in my thoughts and prayers. Tiffany

Jodi I went through the samething. it was awful. I took all the mirrors down and felt like i was living in smeone elses body and in someone elses clothes , because of complications after surgery my hair fell out so much i had to cut it off and it grew back brown and curly. I used to be a blond, so it was someone elses body someone elses face someone elses hair . I thought who in the heck is that . It was hard and confusing and soooooo unexpected. I was suposed to be excited and proud of myself. But that is not how i felt at all. Im almost 3 years post op. it may take a little time but You will adjust . i suggest you get to know that lady in the mirror. She is new to you so try to get to know her. Im glad you posted this . i though at the time that i must be out of my mind . But i soon learned that im not. It took some adjusting and i needed to get to know the new lady in the mirror . and now I LIKE HER ALOT. :-) CHERI

Hey Jo... I will be on my motorcycle in Crawfordsville today... Hubby and I are riding to a bridal shower on James street... down off of Wabash..... If you see a green trike Harley with goddess on it... Yep thats ME!!! The shower is at 2 so I will be going thru there about 1:45 or so.. Sorry I can't stop but I wanted you to know I would be thinking of you on my way thru.. Linda