anyone every have this worry?

I had no doubts or worrys going into surgery. What is bothering me now is my own reaction to the weight loss. I'm 3 1/2 months post op, I've lost 65 pounds. I am at the lowest point I've been in over 20 years. I still have 120 to lose and now I having trobule imagining how it will feel. Before surgery I never saw myself as big as I was in my mind. Now that I'm finally losing weight it is like I'm exploring a new and uncharted world. Am I unusual or does someone out there understand what I'm trying to say?

Jan I think what you are feeling is very normal. I know I am now 6 months post op and down 125 lbs from 450 at time of surgery. I am just now starting to realize that I am thinner. Mainly by my clothes I can now wear. But I still cannot see my self weighing 200 lbs if in fact I make it down there. Of course I never really saw myself as being 450 lbs. I guess I have a thin brain. I knew I was big but did not see it. I guess we just have to go with the flow with the weight loss and enjoy every lb of it. I think my mind will catch up some day. Dan

Jan, I have never, ever wore a size 12 before now. I went from chubby girls to a women's 14/16. About 20 years ago I got down into a size 16. That time, I weighed 5 lbs less than the scales show now. Guess that attests to the muscles I have now that I didn't have then. Anyway, I go shopping and I'll hold up a size 12 and think 'there is now way this will fit..but it will eventually'. So I buy it. I get home, try it on, and it's too big! I just can't get my thinking process to consider that I am small enough to wear size 12's. I really didn't get this way till I hit size 14. Maybe because I had been a 16 during my adult life...??? Lesson learned, I try on clothes now. Sherri

I havent been in a size 16 for 30 years!! I look in the mirror and see the same woman I have always seen.. I went to a garage sale and held up a pair of pants and said no way.. until I looked at the size that said size 16.. then i said yep.. I can wear it.. I could.. The 16's look SO TINY compaired to the 26's I used to wear.. My perception is all a kilter..Reality FINALLY is better than it has been in sooo long!! Yep... I think your normal!! Enjoy the heck out of it!!! Linda

I know how that feeling goes. I'm 2 1/2 months out, down 50 pounds. But i don't see it. I'm still wearing the same old clothes. Still fat. Same old me. I'm mostly afraid that this is all the weight I will ever lose (as im in a plateau right now) and that I went through all that to lose only 50 pounds. But, at the same time, I kNOW I eat far more less than i used to. The thought of taking an actual BITE, a real BITE, of something almost makes me feel sick. Hang in there, we'll make our own ways.

This is just one of the many adjustment you will be going through for the next 10-12 months. I think one of our self-esteem preservation features is that we don't see ourselves in the mirror as we see in pictures. I still don't feel the size I am and I am on the other side of where I used to be. I have gained a greater appreciation for eating disorders where people don't see themselves the way they actually are. I have realized that I am one of those people. Our bodies change very quickly after surgery and I think it takes our minds a while to catch up. Enjoy the shopping for new clothes and the ability to buy "off the rack." Best wishes through your journey, Tony Coble was 384 now 216 (13 months post-op)