Sleep test tonight...and

Tonight I go for my sleep test at the hospital. I still have doubts that I will be able to sleep all night, considering that I can only lay down for a few hours before my back starts to hurt and I need to sit up and sleep. Oh well. Guess we'll tackle that tonight. Here is the and...my marriage is pretty much over as it has been for years, I know I need to change things but right now is not the time. Since he carries the ins. and it seems like everything about having the surgery will work out, I don't want to screw this up. And he knows this. But yesterday I asked him if he even cared about me a little and he said he does but he's not in love with me anymore. I know this, I have known this, so why can't I break free. If a man stands there and tells you he doesn't love you, you should have enough brains to walk away. I don't know why I asked that question, because the answer is always the same..UGH. I just want to have the surgery so I can say that I used him for what I wanted, and throw him out.

It's always hard to let go to what you know. Sorry to hear that things are not going well...but try to stay positive and look forward to the future and your new life...when one door closes...another one opens. Have faith that your new door will be filled with pleasant surprises

I agree when one door closes another one opens... then again when you have lost and have all the vim vigor and LIFE you havent had for so long... He may just remember WHY he married you in the first place... THEN it is your decision if you let him back thru the door or just let him wave as you pass by... Linda

Barb, If you find you can't sleep ask for something! The techs didn't tell me ahead of time but, they have a mild sleeper to give you! I was told they can give it to you if you can't sleep after a couple hours of trying. I had my sleep study done at the midwest sleep institute (116th & Meridian) Sorry about your marriage too...I would say keep looking forward to your bright, healthy future! Best wishes, Lisa

Hang in there Barb! You need to concentrate on one thing at a time ...right now...that is you! Get your testing in and focus on your upcoming surgery. After you are stronger and feeling so much better about yourself you can deal with the marriage situation....God will guide you and I trust him for your happy future! Have a great day! Keep Blooming! Marianne

ahh men anyway..wait till he sees you after this surgery, he will be sorry he said that....you work on you and do this for you this is all about you right now...hopefully you are closer to the surgery and gonna be a loser in more ways than one...and it will all be good....