Excited and scared!

I have been mostly lurking for the past couple of months...just biding my time and waiting.
Now, OMG, surgery is next week! I am so excited and scared. I am not even sure which feeling takes precedence!
I am so excited to be me again..to feel like exercising and walking with my dogs and kids, to not have to shop in the "fat girls" section, to not feel like my feet are falling off and my back is killing me at the end of a 12 hour shift! I know most, if not all of those things will happen with time.
I am not scared of surgery itself but I am terrified of other things! What if I can't do all the protein after surgery and all my hair falls out? What if I don't lose weight or I look like an old hag if I do lose weight? And my biggest fear of all what if.....after I have this surgery and lose the weight...I am not able to maintain the lifestyle and gain it back?
I am sure most people have similar fears with something as momentous as weight loss surgery. I guess it all just seems very real to me now that surgery is only a few days away

Welcome Vanessa and Good Luck.  All the things you are feeling is normal.  Try to stop the "what ifs" and focus on the positive.  It is a journey,  you will go through many stages and soon after your surgery you will be thinking  "what have I done".  Just know that it gets better.  I am over 2 years out and I am soooooooooo glad that I made the decision to have WLS.  You are beginning a new chapter in Vanessa's book.  ENJOY it.  Come here to OH and allow us to support and encourage you.  We even will kick your behind when you need it.   

Thanks Kim! The behind kicking I am sure will be in order at some point in time

Your feelings are norrmal.. You'll be fine it is the ones who arent scared and think this is the easy way that worry me...Boy are they in for an awakening!!  This isnt easy but it is worth it!!

I am over 4 yrs out and sorry but my feet still ache when I get off at the end of an 8 hour shift...but then Im 53.5 years old too!! LOL

WHAT IF?? What if you dont do the surgery and dont loose weight??? YOU WILL DIE FAT!! sorry but I was killing myself with sugar, carbs, fat and not fruits and veggies.. I couldnt play with my grandbabies on the floor and I couldnt breathe...

I LOVE my RNY.. I am not perfect and I am not a size 10 again but I am not a 32 either!!!

Linda Kay

Welcome Vanessa,

I remember those overwhelming feelings. The excitement, the fear. I would recommend having someone to talk to, like a counselor for awhile. There are so many changes, so quickly that first year. I think it helps.

I know I had and have the fears of not losing the weight, and not being able to maintain it. That is/was my worst fear, to be a failure at this.

I got to my goal about a year ago. Started gaining back weight after my 5yo daughter died in a car accident in February this year. I gained back 30 pounds. Wah. I just kind of brushed it off as just a little till it hit 30. That I couldn't brush off. I'm getting back on track now, 26 pounds to go back to goal, an d I'm gonna do it.

Remember, we're here for ya!

As it gets closer I am excited and scared also - but I am scared of the surgery itself unlike you!  We just found out my husband won't be able to be with me because we have a 2 yr. old born premature that has bronchitis.  My mother is sick also - so my hubby will stay home with him and other kids, our 17 yr old daughter will go with me.  Dr. Troop is wonderful I hear.  The hair thing bothers me also, I figure I have plenty of scarves if I need them a few months from now!  I will gladly trade hair for weight if need be!  But I will do my best to get my protein in!  Good luck to you.  You should be going in when I am coming out!  I am sure we will both do fine!

Karen

Take your biotin... works for most people!!  Thicker hair and longer nails!! Yee haw!!

My hubby hates hospitals.. He sat and waited for me to get out of surgery and the next time I saw him he was picking me up a few days later.. didnt bother me. I was so busy walking, sipping sleeping and learning to be the new me... heck lack of visitors didnt bother me I welcomed the alone time...

At first dont stress the protien.. do the best you can but Make sure you get your liquids in... dont dehydrate yourself it is soooo easy at first so just sip sip sip..

Linda Kay

Thanks all of you for the encouragement! Glad to know that the fears are shared ones!
I am working all weekend and see Dr Throop on Monday for final preop visit...then rest day on Tuesday and to the hospital Weds morning at 8:30. Lord I think I need a Valium...or Xanax...or a big old hot fudge sundae!

I completely understand.  The hot fudge sundae sounds good, but as it gets closer the valium sounds better.................................