LIFE

Seems like again there are many struggles with our friends on the board.  It is so nice we can come here and know our friends are here.  I am praying for all of you.

I am trying to adjust to life without Lyn.  I have this huge empty feeling that wont go away.  Nights are terrible, guess I was used to getting up with him so much so now I cannot sleep and wake up then cant get back to sleep.

I do ok then something will hit me and I lose it.  That happened today---I was filling out a paper with HR person where I am doing some work--more about that below----Came to the simple question of    Married _______ Single_______.  I automatically put my pen at the married and then started crying right there in the restaurant as it hit me that I am not married anymore--here I go crying again just typing this---UGH!!!

I wasn't going to look for work for a few weeks till I got my head together a little more.  But God had another plan and a job kinda landed on my lap if I wanted it.  It is doing Flu shot clinic at CVS pharmacies.  I can work as much or as little as I want and the pay is good.  Should last thru Dec and maybe thru Feb so I started Tuesday and am on a 6 day stretch now.  Some days are 11 hr days and some as little as 4 but I love it.  I love talking to the public and getting up and ready for work.  I was getting in that slump of why get up cause there is no one to talk to and the only thing to do is clean house.  So now I have a reason.

The owner of the home care company where I worked in MI and some of my work friends and nurses came to the funeral also.  The boss called me the other day and asked if I would drive to Shipshewana this coming Monday and stay till Wednesday and she was bringing some of my friends also.  So Mon thru Wed I will be there then am riding back to MI with them and leaving my car somewhere in northern IN then 3 of us will come back again on Friday and attend the E Women--Extraordinary Women Christian conference in Ft Wayne on Friday and Saturday then I will come home Sunday.  So I have a very busy week next week.

I would love to get together with all of you whenever you have your get togethers that I haven't been able to attend.  If I get up that way I will post it to see if anyone wants to go to lunch or shop or something.

Thanks for everything--Love you all
God Bless            Terry

Terry
sweetie icant begin to imagine what you are going thru,it has to be so hard and my heart breaks for you...
But a get away with your friends will be good for you and you really deserve it and even thoguh you cant reach out and touch Lyn know that he is with you always...

Congrats on the job,it something good when it falls right in your lap like it is meant tome.
Hang in ther sweetie.
Much love and a really tight hugg

Terry, know that you are still married, your sweet Lyn just isn't with us in life any longer. But that doesn't mean he won't always be a huge part of your heart. I'm glad you're getting out in the workforce again and enjoying your time with the public. Let me know when things slow down a little and you're ready for a girl's night out! Cause, I know I'm ready.

Melissa

Terry,

I think Lyn would be very proud of the way you have handled, and continue to handle all the changes in your life. I think work is just the right thing right now. Helping others is always theraputic for me anyway. Remember, that when an application asks if you are married, that it has to do with taxes, benefits, and emergency contact. It has nothing to do with the heart.

While you are up in the Shipshiwana/Ft. Wayne area, you ought to try to get together with some of the folks up there. Hope owns the KOA in the neighboring town of Middlebury (it's where we've done the OH camp-outs). You and Hope have a something special in common. She lost her Peter last December. There are several who live in/near Ft. Wayne.

Maybe we can try to plan a dinner here in Indy...say...in 2 weeks? Let us know what your schedule looks like on that weekend.

Sherri

Sweetest Terry, I can't begin to fathom what you have endured and are continuing to go through.  There are varying stages of grief and I believe you are going through them with so much grace.  Your attitude amazes me.  I wish I had something to offer you that would bring joy to your heart.  Just know that you are loved.

Smooches,
Jacqui