I'm back...
I hope you all are doing well.
I left town Tuesday. I needed a little time and space to think about things, work on healing myself, rest, reflect,.... I went to a place where I could be cared for and do those things.
I am feeling better now, am in a better state of mind.
I reflect on something one of my coworkers told me last week. She told me it was just Maggie's time, and my car happened to be her chariot. That if we hadn't gone on that trip it would have been some thing else. Normally something like that would annoy me, but instead it created a sense of peace in me when I thought about it. If that's true, it wasn't my fault.
I feel like I can go forward now. Not that everything is healed, but I have the strength to face the challenges now.
MY RNY!
Your strength is admirable. The things you have been through would have crumbled many people. That is true it was just Maggie's time. For reasons we are not even capable of understanding. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so proud of you taking some time for yourself. That is such a good thing for you... Helping you to be a great Mom to Mikey and a great wife.
You know you are loved and have the support of all of us here.
No sweetie, it wasnt your fault.. Your friend was right...
My heart aches for you, it isnt easy to explain or to figure a reason you just need to believe she is with God.
Sissy's song by Alan Jackson Why did she have to go
So young I just don't know why
Things happen half the time
Without reason without rhyme
Lovely, sweet young woman
Daughter, wife and mother
Makes no sense to me
I just have to believe
She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me
Loved ones she left behind
Just trying to survive
And understand the why
Feeling so lost inside
Anger shot straight at God
Then asking for His love
Empty with disbelief
Just hoping that maybe
She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with Jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me
It's hard to say goodbye
Her picture in my mind
They'll always be of times I'll cherish
And I won't cry 'cause
She flew up to Heaven on the wings of angels
By the clouds and stars and passed where no one sees
And she walks with jesus and her loved ones waiting
And I know she's smiling saying
Don't worry 'bout me
Don't worry 'bout me
I am so glad to hear you are feeling somewhat better. I agree with Leah, it was just Maggie's time.
I used to have a tremendous fear of flying and thought if I flew I would die. Someone told me, it does not matter if you are flying or driving or taking a shower. If it is your time, it is your time. You cannot determine the vehicle in which it occurs.
You know you are a loving mom and you did the best you could. I cannot imagine the magnitude of personally dealing with your tragedy, all I can do is continually keep you in my prayers.
Please take care of yourself.
Lisa
I am so glad to hear you are in a better state of mind.
Will you be able to come to the clothing exchange Saturday? I know we'd all love to see you.
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