I can't do this again.

I don't know what to say, I just have to say something. I am so sad and angry and confused all at the same time. Why are both my little girls gone from me? This is so unfair. Maggie was wearing seatbelt and in her booster seat. We did everything we were supposed to have done.

I told Mike I wanted to call a lawyer and sue the signmaker or INDOT or someone. I want this to have an explanation. I want it to be someone's fault besides mine.

Why does my baby boy, who already has so many struggles, have to go through this too?

I keep forgetting where I am, and I'm back in that moment on the road, losing control and thinking I have to do something, and then realizing I can't.

I remember talking to a friend after Lucy died, who had lost two children. I didn't understand how she could be that strong. I don't think I could do this if I didn't have Mikey.

I feel so bad for your sadness. I know as a nurse, I want to say what a exceptional and kind person you are to donate your little girls organs. You sound like a wonderful Mother. Your little boy is lucky to have you for all the challenges a head. I keep you in my prayers. Wendy

Linda,

I know this is very, very hard for at this time, but you are not to blame for this accident, I lost a child just when she was 22 hours old, so I know what you are going through, I was living in Texas at the time and they had this group call "The Angels" it was a support group for parents that have lost children.

I think you should find this kind a of a group, I am sure that the Children Hospital where Mikey is at has this kind of group.  I think this would be good for you and your husband to go to.

Mikey is going to need both of you when he gets to go home he needs both of you.

I will be praying for your family.

I am sorry if I have over step my bounds, since I am new to this forum, but I just want to help you and your family all I can.

God Bless You and your Family.  

Linda,

I have no words of wisdom here today, but just want to offer support.  The song "Held" by Natalie Grant keeps going through my mind as I think/pray for your family.  Whatever you're feeling...it's absolutely okay to feel, for you, for Mikey, and for all the people who were never fortunate enough to be able to get to know your precious children.  It's okay to let it out--all of it.  I'm glad you feel you can come here to let your feelings out.  We all love you and are here for you anytime.  May God bring you the peace and comfort only He can give.  


    

I have no words Linda but I want to tell you I am here for you!! (( HUGS )) I am praying for you continuosly. When I walked out of Mikey's room it took every bit of me not to just break down and cry and I've never met him before but I know that wasn't your Mikey you rave so much about. God has his arms around you right now and know that He loves you. Cling to Him.

lLinda,

Ive typed u 2 messages this evening and had to delete each one of them.  Words can never say how heavy my heart is for you.  I just want u to know my phone is on 24 hrs a day if u ever  need to talk.  Im alway up at night if u need to talk.  Im thinking of you often and keeping u and your family in my prayers

Linda,

I think you are having normal feelings.  It is totally unfair.  You did everything right - Maggie and Mikey should have been safe and snug.

Unfortunately, things like this happen - we can't explain it, we can't even understand it.  Sad, grieving, confused, angry - all are valid emotions right now.  I would think any of us would run the gamut of emotions had this happened to us.

It's not your fault.  You didn't cause the snow and ice.  It sounds as if you are experiencing flashbacks of the accident.  I think that is normal, given the traumatic turn of events.

You are a very strong woman.  You've gone through more than any mother should have to bear.  My heart aches for you, and you are always in my thoughts and prayers.

I wish I could hold you close, stroke your hair and tell you it will be alright.  The only problem is, it won't be.  There will always be an empty hole in your heart where Maggie should be.  All you can do is go on, and be there for your son.

I would encourage you to contact the Social Worker at Riley.  There are many bereavement groups for parents that have lost children.  There you will find that you aren't alone in your feelings.

When the Lord calls our loved ones home, He leaves a gift of memories in exchange.  We're always here for you if you want to talk.  In the meantime, take comfort in knowing that you were chosen to be the mother of two of God's precious little angels - they were loaned to you for a short while.  We love you.

you need a support group Linda....and help with this struggle....i can see why you feel like you do, but, it is not your fault...the Lord wanted her back, he only loaned her to you for those short 5 years.....and you need to be with others that know how to support you through this....and i know you are not to blame....you have to know this as well....hugs

I've been watching your story because it was linked to a board I normally post on.  I am so very sorry for your loss.  I wanted to tell you that I hope one day you find the strength to forgive yourself, this was a terrible accident and you are not to blame.  I will keep you in my thoughts and I hope that time and fond memories of your daughter lessen your grief and your pain.

When you are ready, there is a new drug out there that doctors are trying that can help erase the painful memories associated with events, right now it may seem like you don't want that, but one day it may be a good thing to help you go on.

Linda,  I am glad you are letting your feelings out and you are comfortable will leaning on us.  We are here for you no matter what.  I know we can't make it all better but we can try to support you when you need us.

It's not a bad to check into grief counseling or a support group.  There is only so much you can bear all alone.  You and Mike are in my prayers.

Huge hugs,
Tracy