My one year checkup was today!

I was at St. Vincent's today for my one year checkup! I have officially lost 120 pounds since surgery (the rest on my ticker is from before surgery.) My only problem is low vitamin K. The dietician gave me some foods to try, and Dr. Inman said to go ahead and take supplements for a while to bring it up. My official 'anniversary' is on Wednesday. It's hard to believe how much can change in a year. I mean, I was wearing size 28's last year at this time. Today I'm wearing size 10's.  It's so hard adjusting to it though. I could wear some mediums, but I just can't get up the courage to buy medium. I just don't feel ready to wear a medium. Large is still, well, large. Medium sounds, normal sized to me? I don't know. Today I felt my bones around my neck and running across to my shoulders. I don't remember their name. I felt scared. I had never felt them so prominently before. I still have fifteen pounds to get to my goal, too. My mom keeps saying to me, "now don't get too thin." Now my older sister is probably about a size 4 soaking wet. I never hear mom saying that to my sister. I don't know what to think about that. I'll come out of the closet here too. For awhile, I was having some real problems. I would feel so guilty for eating anything, and bad about having eaten, I would make myself throw up. My psychologist was starting to use the word bulimia. I didn't say anything to many people because I was ashamed. But it's under control now, and I haven't been doing it. Worked on it with her (the psychologist) and the dieticians. This is such a transition, and such changes. It's not easy. That's for sure.  Thanks for reading all this!

Lets start with CONGRATS!!!!!!!!!!! I am happy to hear you got help for your problem. I know you know about how ur bosy may not get all the vitamins needed but then the vomiting makes it worse. I hope you are okay with yourself. One thing I want to say is we know it is hard. See when you are already big and eat something your not supposed to you say oh well its not gonna hurt me... once you lose weight you realize what everything can do to you. I would tlak to the dietician on what you should allow yourself to have so you dont feel like your not getting it so you need it... I hope everything is going good.... And "Happy Re-birthday!" I am really happy for you... It takes alot to admit you have that issue... YOU GO GIRL!!!

Congrats on your surgiversary coming up!! You're doing awesome hon.

Congratulations on your weight loss and your anniversary.  Also thank you for being vulnerable with the issues you have struggled with.  I am becoming more comfortable with who I am becoming.  When people tell me how good I look it has been hard to believe them and accept their compliment.  I am just becoming able to say thank you and not adding but ....  I am proud of you that you recognized a problem and sought help.  Congratulations once again! Peg

Way to go!!! Happy birthday!!!! I'm sure adjusting is hard, and we'll meet challenges along the way. I think that by you talking things out with the nuts and dr is wonderful. its a big step to have others help you out. You are wonderful, doing wonderful, and looking wonderful!!! Keep your chin up; you can be whatever size you want! Don't let mom get you down! You be you, don't worry about her.  I'm very proud of all of your progress!  hugs! Amanda

Congrats. Wow it just seems like yesterday when you had your surgery. How time flies Robin

Great job Linda! You keep up the good work.  Happy re-birthday! Jenny

The boney feel is hard to get used to.  I still find bones that I didn't know I had.  Congrats and keep up the good lifestyle changes. God loves you E

Linda,

Congrats!!

I think you're talking about the clavicle. Many men find this the most sexy part of a woman's body.  I know for me, it was hard to get use to feeling & seeing too!

I'm very proud of you for sharing with us the bulimia issue. Many times, things like that remain in the closet and the best way to help others to avoid the same trapfalls is by sharing of experiences. Thank you for doing that. I'm so happy that you were able to get the help and support you needed to work through this. Many huggs! Sherri

LINDA!! CONGRATS!!! THat's awesome 120 lbs... I'm so happy for you and proud of you. My therapist has started talking bout anorexia to me. She took my scale away. She said those habits that I had before surgery, like eating when I was mad to mask the feeling are getting flipped and now I don't eat when i'm mad.. She said it's not to the point yet that you're going to physically hurt yourself but it will eventually so we need to nip this in the butt now. I can only weigh myself twice a week now. Where I was weighing myself multiple times a day and if I had gained weight I wouldn't eat... Which is absolutely absurd because you're going to gain weight throughout the day, your clothes, the water you drink... all that... I was working out really hard... just doing silly things... I know they're silly but I do them anyways... it's a process and one I'm working through... I'm really glad you brought that up in here (about the bulimia) it is something that we deal with... I had an eating disorder before, I truely believe that obesity is an eating disorder, having surgery wasn't goin to get rid of that, just mask the problem for a while. I want the problem to go away and I want to be healthy... So you go girl for taking care of you... Getting healthy is so much more than losing weight and wearing normal clothes ya know? ::Hugs:: Congrats again and happy surgiversary!!