Meltdown I need help

Yesterday was the very worst day since I had my surgery.  I was in the gas station after filling my car up.  I had started getting the shakes while driving and they were getting worse.  So I knew my blood sugar was getting low.  Figured I better get in there and get me something to hold me over till I got home.  I figured some cheese crackers or chips should  do it.  Well while I was trying to figure it out....I came across this bag of maple nut goodies.  They were one of my favorite candies before surgery.  Well on impluse I just picked them up and bought them.  (GOD PLEASE DONT EVER LET ME DO THAT AGAIN). Before I knew I had ate almost 1/2 the bag.  So I closed it up and thru it under the seat of my car (second mistake, should have thrown them out the window).  Well I get to Richmond, feeling physically fine..no dumping from all that sugar which really sucks...I wi**** would had made me deathly sick so I would never never never be able to do that again. So tonight I get to work.  Im feeling so bad over what I did, getting more and more depressed by the minute.  I tried to call my husband and then my neice, couldnt get ahold of anyone.  Not to many ppl I can call that late in the evening.  Im just so upset with myself....so whats the first thing I always did before when I was upset and depressed and alone....EAT LIKE A COW!!!

So here I am at work and go out to my car....and like a crack ***** Im going nuts looking for that darn candy in my car....Knowing I shouldnt go anywhere near it but not being able to get control of myself...I found it and finished off that bag. So an hr after I do my husband finally gets his break at work and calls me back.  Im crying, a mental nut case...I told him Im going to have to go see a shrink or something becouse I cant ever do this again....I have come to far to put this darn weight back on.  Im in crisis and I need help!!! Anyone know a good shrink???....that knows how to deal with food issues.  Before surgery I went to one about my wt problem and she told me to go buy lean cuisines and that would help my portion control....what an idiot she was.

I had a hard time finding a shrink that honestly dealt with food issues for food addicts. What I ended up doing was joing Over Eaters Anonymous. It's just like AA only for food addiction. It has helped me turmendously in dealing with not only my food addiction but some other emotional addictions I have too. It has really kept me honest and they have a great peer support system. I found mine in the local paper. And honestly, the fact that you are able to identify that it's a problem and ask for help is the right step in the right direction. Now it's just a matter of finding a program or doc/shrink that will work for you to deal with it. So don't beat yourself up to bad, okay! Hugs Jodi

(((((hugs))))) Psychiatrists mainly prescribe medications in this day and age. If you want someone to talk to much, you want a psychologist/counselor type of person. I don't know of any in Indy, but I think it's a good thing for folks. I have one, and she is immensely helpful to me.

Did anyone ever read the book, or watch the movie FATSO, with Dom Dilouise?  It was about a large man with eating problems and issues.  He found a group that he could call if he needed support.  Now that we have the directory that Floyd so graciously assembled, we have phone numbers to reach anyone that is in crisis. We now have the ability to use each other as a support group, not only on here, but by means of the phone and in person, if you are so lucky to live close to each other.  If you EVER need to talk to someone, please don't hesitate, find my name and numbers on that list, and pick up the phone and call me!!! I don't care what time of day or night it is! If I am near the phone, I will answer.........you can count on that! Please don't beat yourself up.  We have all had moments that we couldn't control, and yet we will all overcome them......in our own time.  I am not on the losers bench yet, but I guarantee you, I will have my own struggles that only I will have to learn to control, and I may not be able to, but I will survive!  Please call me sometime. I am always ready to chat!

((((HUG)))) You have mail.

Pam... I haven't had that happen yet so I have no words of advice but I know that i'm PETRIFIED of it happening ot me... I think I am out of the "honeymoon" period of surgery now and things are starting to happen that I need to deal with that i never dealt with before, emotions are boiling up that before I ate away... so I'm looking for a shrink as well... starting to look today... I will beat this addiction.. you will too... i'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers... Take care and keep the thoughts positive.

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Hang in there girlfriend!  I know all too well how easy it is to fall back into the old pattern.  With all the stress and trouble with my kids' health issues I have found myself turning to my old habits and wanting comfort in food. I can say that I have been weighing myself each morning.  It doesn't STOP the habits but helps me to keep them in check, as much as possible.  I don't know if it is a good idea or not but it helps give me a visual for my mind of whether or not I am moving up, down or maintaining.  Try to reach for water instead of food.  Write a journal to express your worries and frustrations.  Most of all, remember we are all here for you and we are struggling right along with you!   Hugs Claudette 

Ive been so tempted some times that i keep a box of those 100 calorie cookies (i love the chips ahoy ones)  in my car.   they are only 100 calories per bag and they satisfy that hankering for the bad stuff.  they have oreos and many different kinds.  you arent alone, we all have those times. just pick your self up and do your best not to do it again. like LeChelle said.. use the directory,, i always have my cell phone on me day and nite. you do need some one to talk to when you are so upset about something. Good Luck, Carla

Thank you all for your advice and support is was very much needed.  At least I dont feel so all alone now.  It was a very scarey 2 days for me.  So much so that my husband called in sick this afternoon and spent the day with me.   I need an OA meeting.  I wish they had as many of those around as the do AA.  I am heading tomorrow to our other house and get my OA books and get back to reading them.  I did much better eating today but I was still emotionally drained for the entire ordeal...It has really scared me.  Im not sure I know why I got fat to begin with so I need to find out what I was eating for the first time and deal with it so I dont do it all over again. I dont know what I would do without u all...Thanks so much for being here for me. Pamela

PAMALA YOU KNOW YOU CAN ME DAY OR NIGHT . I WILL WAKE UP AND TALK TO YOU . THATS WHAT FRIENDS ARE FOR. I HAVE HAD A DAYS LIKE THAT AND HAVE CHEATED AND PAID DEARLY FOR IT. YOU ARE NOT ALONE IN THIS WE ALL HAVE DAYS LIKE THAT AND IF SOMEONE TELLS YOU THEY DONT THEN THEY ARE LIEING. WELL ALL HAVE A OBSESION WITH FOOD THATS WHY WE GOT IN THIS SHAPE BUT ALL TOOK THE STEP TO OVER COME IT. AND WE ALL HAVE TO SUPPORT EACH OTHER.  I AM GLAD YOU ARE FEELING BETTER NOW AND SO GLAD YOU HAVE ANDY TO HELP YOU .  JUST KNOW WE ( JIM AND I ) LOVE YOU DEARLY VICKI