Feeling bummed out

I know everyone here can understand this--I am having a tough time today with feeling bummed out about the lengthy process of getting WLS.  I have two more doctors appointments before I can submit to the insurance (one appointment is next Monday and the second appointment is the first week of October) but I just SO badly want to have had the surgery and begin losing.  It isn't even about wanting to look better or wear cooler clothes (although those are great perks!) but it is more about not being out of breath when I walk into work from the parking lot, not having constant back and joint pain, not being too exhausted to clean my house really well, etc, etc, etc.  I just want to start LIVING and I feel like I am just waiting to die at this point (I am NOT saying that I WANT to die--I just mean that my life is SO limited right now that in many ways it feels like I am an old, old woman).  Most days I am extremely "UP" about this whole thing--excited about starting a new life, getting ready emotionally, spiritually and physically--heck, my favorite thing to do right now is look at bicycles cause I can not WAIT to ride a bike--but today is a rough day for some reason.  The worries and fear that I won't be approved are really hitting me hard today.  Thankfully I have a support group to attend tonight and I know that will help a TON.  Just being with other people who have felt/are feeling the same things will help.

Hi Keep your chin up!!  It took me 7 months to get through my stuff.  It has been well worth the wait.  Just hold tight! Good Luck to you! Rebekah

Maddie, Do you go to Clarian Support Group tonight?  If so, look for us and introduce yourself. Floyd

Nope--not attending the Clarian Support meeting--I am going to the Bloomington St. Vincent's support meeting. 

Maddie, I know how you feel.  It seems I've been waiting forever for this to happen.  It's so exciting and yet so long.   I have a date but because of work commitments, I had to schedule for late October.  It's driving me crazy!  It seems like time has come to a standstill. Hang in there and know we're all behind you.  Your time will come and it will be perfect.  Try to remember that things don't work in our time but in one whose time is always much, much better.

Blessings,

Jacqui

I know how you feel because i too have to wait because i have 2 more doctors visit's to go before i can submit. i'm haveing the same feelings that you are. sounds like we might be haveing surgery around the same time. that would be cool. i'm also worried and scared that i might not get approved then where will i be and was all this time worth it. but i feel that it is, because i want to live and be healthy. if you wanna talk just let me know. email [email protected] and i'm on myspace too.....just look for julie boyd and you will find me. Julie Boyd- Highland, Indiana

It is ok to feel anxious!! Soon , very soon you will be on the road to recovery.. recovering the life you were always ment to live!! It is ok to feel anxious!! Because the day of surgery is the first day of the best of your life!!! This TOOL I now have is the best thing that has happened to my personal life my body and to my family... who cares if I look like Batwoman and have bat wings I could FLY with... I have a waist!!! It started out 58 inches!!!! I am not perfect but I have lost 20 of those waist inches!!! I can get into my husbands jeans!!! I can WALK!! and I am HAPPY!!! Your time  is a comin sweetie then  YOU'RE OFF!!! we support you 100%!! Linda Kay