Feeling sorry for myself

I don't know if I need to vent or cry or whine or what.  I just know I'm so sick of being this fat. I had a meeting today in Evansville.  It was an "energy summit" and the governor spoke there.  It was held in a theatre type facility.  I know you know where I'm going with this. 

I just hate it that if I had to get up to go to the bathroom, everyone has to practically get out of the row so I can get out.  Of course I'm the only fat girl in the room.  Sure there are people there that are "over weight" but I'm always the biggest person in the room.  It really makes me sick.   I know people aren't really doing this, but I sure feel like they're all looking at me thinking, "My Gosh, why doesn't she do something about her weight".  I really feel that way around the governor with all of his "get fit" crap.  Like I want to stay this way.   I know I shouldn't be like this.  I am doing something about it.  It's just embarrassing when you're in a crowd like that. Thanks for listening. Jacqui  

Jacqui, I've felt the exact same way. It feels like all the eyes in the room are staring right at you even if they aren't. I don't know what to tell you to make that feeling go away. I wish I could make it go away for all of us. Hang in there!

Jacqui.....I feel so bad for you. I can relate to what your saying my DH and I recently went somewhere and our seats were in the middle of the aisle. When we had to get up to leave I slipped and practically fell on someones lap! I was so humiliated! All I could think about was what that person must have been thinking about me!

Keep your head up and remember you are doing something about it.......soon you will no longer feel like the "fat girl" in the room.

It will all get better real soon.  I have been in your shoes many times.  I am sure I will have a few more of those times.  But I keep thinking not much longer and I wont have to feel this way.  Keep your chin up!

Been there done that.. I was in an airplane and needed a seatbelt extension.. the stew held it up so everyone could see and said here did you need the extension.. I felt like saying Bit$#.. but I didnt... but the next flight out after WLS and I didn't need one...WOW!!! I am a state employee and and refuse to join any of the Govs weight issue programs.. walking around the government center is my choice.. I do it for ME not him!! I could care less if I get any of HIS brownie points..(even his sugar free brownie points) His Get FIT programs well...I just wish people would promote mental health and spiritual growth...and MANNERS!!!  More  could benifit from those programs. Linda Kay

Jacqui, We can all relate at one point of our life.  Just think, it won't be long and you'll be on the losing side and start to enjoy not feeling this way.  All these unpleasant events will soon only be a memory.  Take care. Floyd

Come sit next to me and put your head on my shoulder.  I understand.   It will get better.....then it will be quite the opposite.   I've started getting dirty looks and rude comments from the overweight crowd now.  I'm going to print cards with my before picture on it to hand to them.   There's my vent for the day!

Linda, I agree about the Gov...I don't need his brownie points.  I'd just eat them anyway!

Thank you all so much for your encouragement.  It's so wonderful to have you here.  I am so blessed.  My friends try to be supportive but unless you've been there....well you know what I mean.  I love the talk about the brownie points!   bahahahaha!   I needed a good laugh today.  I love you guys! Jacqui

I feel you pain,  Just over a yr ago I was at basicly 400 lbs.  I couldnt walk 6 steps without getting short of breath.  I felt like ppl never looked at me.  I know they never made eye contact.  I just disqusted them.  Now a yr later Im down 180 lbs and Im looking better than most of the ones that made me feel like crap.... Thing is now I feel so bad for overweight ppl and so many times I want to just slip them my surgeons card....I havent done that yet but I wish someone would have done that for me yrs ago... I want to help them I just dont know how yet without hurting their feelings.  Im still working on that one.  I want to help not make things worse.  You life will change so dramaticly after surgery....Im routing for you and things will get better just hang in there and if u ever need to vent u can message me...or my email is [email protected]