Excited, scared, worried and more

My paperwork is supposed to be sent to my insurance soon for approval so I am getting closer and closer to having surgery. I am having so many different feelings--many of them not what I expected.  Obviously, I am excited--excited to begin losing weight, feeling better, doing stuff I want, and obviously I am scared--I have never had any type of surgery and being put to sleep scares me and obviously I am worried about complications etc. But I am also feeling sad.  Sad that I will no longer be able to eat the foods I love, sad that food will no longer be an option to comfort me.  I am anxious about all the comments I will get when I start losing weight--I don't want a lot of people calling attention to my weight loss--that makes me uncomfortable, but I know people will and I know they are just trying to be supportive---but how do I handle the discomfort of the "limelight"?  I am nervous about what I will look like thinner--I have always been obese and can not imagine what I might look like at a somewhat normal weight.  What if I am ugly?  I also am nervous about being thinner--there is a certain comfort to my fatness.  Can anyone relate to any of this?

I know what you mean. Ive always been overweight and I know when I finally do ave WLS that everyone will comment on it. and im not sure how to answer questions, and reply to comments. My biggest worry is the excess skin, since I know most insurance companies dont cover plastics. And paying out of pocket isnt an option. But look at it this way. We can cover it up still like we do now. But we will be able to do things we want. I cant wait to be able to out to eat and not have to ask for a table instead being able to sit at a booth. Best wishes  you will be fine.

Everyone is different.  I really worried about losing bread as a comfort food.  Understand that I made my own using the best stuff I could find and would bake bread 4 times a week.  I have not had bread in my mouth since 4-12-07 and I don not miss it.  I don't know why I just don't. Fried food is the same way.  Onion rings from Mug and Bun Tenderloins also I do not crave them. I will on occasion bread a small piece of fish with corn starch and pan cook in a teaspoon of olive oil but that is only once or twice. People will see the change it can't be helped.  Losing 100+ lbs or more will make you look different. I was at a group meeting Saturday and 3 close friends did not know me until I spoke.  That reaction was different but I wasn't scared or embarrassed like I thought I would be.  PS They were all happy for me. I buy clothes at WalMart now 5 bucks for summer markdown pants and shirts and I hope in a month or two I will need more.  I keep my belt as a reminder of what has changed.  The shoe repair guy in Greenwood sees me and I say add 4 more holes he laughs charges me 3 dollars and says see you again soon.  By the way the end of the belt now goes to the middle of my back when it reaches all the way around I will but a new one and hang this one up where I can see it daily and remeber why I don't overeat. Hang on for the ride and make the surgery work as well as possible.   E

Maddie,  Have you considered some counseling to help you cope with all the changes that will be coming? I have a counselor, and she has been invaluable to me in this last year. 

Maddie,  Have you considered some counseling to help you cope with all the changes that will be coming? I have a counselor, and she has been invaluable to me in this last year. 

I have had a lot of counseling and will have a counselor available after the surgery--I know I can handle the stress and feelings--it just suprises me that  I am already feeling some of this!  Ya know?

hey there~ well its good to feel them emotions- i was all ready 4 surgery and had it aug 8 and now im over whelmed with all these emotions i wish i wouldve dealt with prior aqnd that way i could of pre pared myself more better -----i really tink its going to be ok like everyone says its just the first month that is the hardest~~~~~~~im ready for month 2 to come luckly days go by fast lol ----well anyhow good luck -----theres alot of caring people on here~