Thursday, the morning after

Pam, sorry that you had such a rough day yesterday! It is over though and today is a NEW day! Wipe yourself off and get back on track, today! We are all human and make mistakes- but you caught it and you know why it happened, stress, shoot we all do it and have to dust ourselves off too! Don't let it get you too down, look at how far you have come- A LONG WAY!! BABY!!! Put a smile on your face and be proud of what you have accomplished! Moderation is the key and you know that you made a mistake or a bad choice anyway- but it still wasn't as much as what you could have done before your wls, so shake it off- you will be ok!!! i am rootin for ya! I have my days too- but I am still on my way!!!! Heres a BIG HUG for ya! Hope it helps! I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers for your loss of your friend, that never is easy! Job wise- keep looking someone will be happy to have you and have you as an asset for them, they are still there! i know that one was close, but ya never know- God does and he will lead you! Hope you are having a better day today! Hugz dawn

Pam.....Pam....Pam..... Yesterday was definatley a Sucky Day! Thank goodness they only last 24 hours! I totally am with you on the eating bad things! Heck, when I do indulge I feel so crummy physically, and it get me in check and it keeps me on the straight and narrow. It is such a blessing to have the storage amount in limitation so we can't get too far off track. I am so thankful to have the built in portion control alarm! Let me share a little tool I use to make each day more positive....I substitue the phrase "Get To" for every "Have To" I would normally have said. How it works is this....For example. Where you would say, "We HAD TO replace the water heater in our old house" You would say, We GET TO replace our water heater in our old house because we have been so blessed to get this wonderful new house and leave this old house to be a treasure for someone else. Instead of I HAVE TO go to work today you say, I GET TO go to work today because God has provided me with a good income to live my life in the fashion I have chose. When you use these 2 little words instead of the Have to, it turns the whole thought process around. Basically it helps train your mind to thinking positively of what good you have instead of dwelling on the negative. I use this principal alot and am know as the "Get to Girl at work" Actually I shared this philosophy with my current boss when she was interviewing me for my current position. She asked me what motivated me each day to come to work so I explained that I didn't "have to" come to work but I "get to" come to work because I am blessed with such a wonderful employer and co-workers. Well...I got the position! LOL The thing is ...I truly believe in this! There are times I say the "get to" thru gritted teeth but....it always helps! It is alot like when I was widowed 7 years ago after 20 wonderful years of marriage to a great man. I had to focus on what I had gained by having him in my life rather than focus on what I had lost. It really helped ease the pain and it allows you to hold dear and cherish the sweet memories that much more. I hope today is better for you and happiness finds it's way to your doorstep! Hugs from the Get To Girl! Marianne

I want to thank all of you for the very kind words. Today has been much better for me. Im out of my crappy mood. Im not bubbling over with joy yet but doing much better. Im hoping the 1/2 chicken salad sandwich( not a healthy one and I even ate one slice of bread). I ate and the small bag kettle chips I had later that night wont be in my future ever again. I felt so quilty for eating them. I so am not going to fall back into all those bad habits...where are my daily dose snacks when I need them.... Marianne, I promise I'll try to be more positive in my future. I get on my husband all the time for doing that same thing...I do need to do a better job of it myself. Thank you. I can honestly say I have had a great job for 10 yrs. I get paid a great salery to sit and watch tv 1/2 the night...and for the last 9 months I even get to exercise while Im watching the tv. Im lucky to have my job but anxious to move on and make more of life and my career. I am looking forward to whats in my future as well where ever that may lead me. I know that if I do my best that all things workout for whats best. So Im claiming now that a better job is in my future. Pamela

Hey Kiddo I am sorry you had such a bad day. I have had a few of that myself this past week and to just turn it over to God to see me thru. Sometimes disappointments is a way of setting you up for something better to come. I just have to remind myself when I am sitting on the PITTY POTTY, to get up and flu**** and move on with my life. Give my regards to Andy. You guys are in Ann and my prayers. I believe God has some great plans for your lives. Looking forward to seeing you at the Clothing Exchange. Papa Dan

I forgot to mention earlier that I am so grateful for all this surgery has given me....Mostly for me getting my life back. Today has been 9 months since my surgery and Im down 156 lbs. I have my follow up with Dr C tomorrow and I plan on visiting on the unit while Im there. Thank you Papa Dan, Your and Anns love and support is always so special to Andy and I. Thank you for your words of encouragement. Also, Sally (annoyingLizzard on the OH boards) has been so wonderful to me over my months on this board. She has updated my monthly pictures on my profile and I updated my wow's and my measurements.