I'm Alive!

Hello everyone. Sherri, I'm sorry I didn't call you yesterday, but it was late by the time I got your message. Just really been struggling with some depression issues, it's finally hit home that my dad is really gone. I think I've gotten dressed three times in the last two weeks, and thats only because I had to leave the house. Hopefully you guys either have recieved, or should be shortly, your thank you cards form the shower. My apologies for being delayed on getting them out. I actually had them in the mailbox to go out on Monday, but we had no mail tues, wed, OR Saturday. They were picked up on Thursday's mail, but when hubby went to shovel snow, he found Tania and Bonnie's cards out in the snow I'm not overly happy with my mailman this week to say the least. I put those two out to be mailed friday night when we found them, but since he didnt bother to come saturday, and there was no mail yesterday, they are still in my mailbox with the flag up. I've been feeding the little one very well despite my depression. Though we had to go into the hospital on valentines day night (which was also our wedding anniversary) because ms. thing in there wasnt moving around. They admitted me for obesrvation, I'm having some contractions (tho honestly all I feel are period-like cramps), bigger ones than the last time they had me hooked up to the monitor, but they said my cervix was closed. Since I came home, her movement has been pretty good. Other than that, I've mostly been moping around in my pajamas. My house is a wreck, I should clean that today. We';ll see if it happens. Thank you all for your concern about me Have a great day!

Hi Darrah, Good to see you post. I think everyone has been worried. Loosing a parent is really tough. I lost my Dad 12 years ago and even now sometimes it's hard. He didn't get to see me get married (and divorced, ha!) or the birth of either of my boys and sometimes I feel cheated. He had a heart attack at age 47 and died at 51. He was way too young. But then I figure I've got an extra angel looking out for me and I know he is still around in my heart. I hope you heal soon, this little baby needs you to be strong and healthy so you can one day tell her all about her grandpa. I still have those maternity clothes you are welcome to if you want them. Tania

Darrah, I'm so glad you posted! Girl, you had us concerned about you hon! When I'm depressed, I force myself to take a shower & get dressed every day, rather if I want to or not. Now that the weather is warming up some, get out of the house. Cabin fever doesn't help depression any. And lastly, don't forget that you have friends who care & understand. Sometimes it helps just being able to share your thoughts & feelings with someone. You have my number. I'm sure you have the number for some of the other people on here. Call us and get it off your chest! Hey, I know, want to meet for lunch tomorrow & get you out of the house? I work lose to your house (at Raymond & Harding) so anywhere close is fine with me. 11 sound ok? Let me know... Sherri

Oh I am so glad to hear you are still on this earth!!! I have been thinking and worrying about you! I just knew that you were struggling with some depression and needed some prayers. I hope you felt them coming to you! Check you schedule and be ready for my call! I want to take you for a pedicure this weekend or when your schedule will allow it! Be well, Carmen

I my heart goes out to you for the loss of your father . my other half and i lost his mother one year ago this week and its really hard because she lived with us. so i know your pain. if you ever need to cry on someone shoulder feel free to email me at [email protected]. i am here . now is the time for you to take care f you and the baby i am sure everyone wants you healthy ..

Hi , Take it easy and take care of yourself! We don't want our little one to get here too soon!!!! I know how you feel, but remember he is in a better place. I know, because both my parents died 17 days apart,& it is heartbreaking. You have to give yourself time to greive and let go. Don't give up on your self care- it is so important!! Take a bath or shower, get out of the house and go for a walk- even if it is at Wal-Mart. Look at all the cute baby things and focus on the good things happening. I am here for you, just pm. me if you want to talk. Love ya, Ellen