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HI ALL..............darn i have been so lost and so missing my fix here.....I see some new names thats great.....isn't the snow great!!!!! though i do not like the cold... On ed he is on a new med so hopefully this is the magic he needs, though he is taking 1/2 the dose he would have taken before wls..(side effects are not good for wls) ..the dr wanted to start him out slow and go from there....then next will be 3 days of plasma something or another.... done here at home and takes 3 days.. But MY EDDIE is not there, he has changed so much and no longer funny ...just like someone new....and stress's me out with how he now acts...any little thing he will go on and on and on about.....it is not pretty either........But boy can he ever eat...he can put some food away... then my son.. some of you know a year ago I found out what was going on with drugs..he was arrested by the FEDERAL MARSHALS.....not a good thing at all...here was a great kid never been in any trouble....as a teen I could not have asked for a better son..never any gangs, none of that and we lived where his friends got into trouble and one of his best friends got on drugs and he did alot to try and help him, which never worked..the Federal charges are much worse than had he been arrested by city police...day for day with the federal police, no 1/2 time off....and appears as though he will do time...33 years old and never been in any kind of trouble other than traffic tickets.....always worked and was just a great person till the drugs happened....he does not deserve prison time..he is out under house arrest, and i keep reminding myself, i have my son. ed does not have one of his...and i knew one of 2 things would happen to him....the least of the 2 evils i suppose happened..but he is not a bad person he does need help but not prison time.he is by no means a crimminal.....I about can not stand the thoughts of his being in prison even one night... Anyway Prayers are all i can do for either one of them...but with all that has taken place in the past few years it is like more than i can handle.... YOU LOSERS ARE THE BEST

Angie, It is good to see ya back on the board posting! I am so sorry to hear of the rough times you are having! Please know that I will be thinking/praying of you and Ed and your son! If you need anything that i can help with, please call! Even if it is getting together for a coffee or wls snack! I have been having some issues with my own son, I can not imagine facing what you are with yours! I know that this is a stressful time, but please keep reaching out to him and letting him know that you will be there no matter what! He does need some help, and I agree, not a criminal! It will be hard, but hopefully this can help him free his body of the drugs and get his life back on track! We all hate to see our children suffer, and want the best for them. Unfortunately sometimes, we have to see them face the wrong paths for the choices they have made, but we have to be strong and allow them to learn from their mistakes! I am definately feeling your pain, and hoping for the best outcome for your son! Please don't forget to take care of yourself, it is sometimes so easy to forget about ourselves when so much else is weighing on our minds! Love ya, miss ya, thinking about ya! Hugz Dawn

Angie, I'm so glad to see you on here. Remember, when heartaches and concerns happen, talking about them often help...and who better to talk to than your friends on OH? I have missed you girl! I was going to call you a few days after the baby shower but had gotten some other calls on my cell and couldn't tell which one was yours...so send me your numbers...k? In my memory on my cell, I have a couple of Angie's listed w/phone numbers. You're the only Angie I know though...I think...so I'm not sure if these are yours or not. They didn't match any of the numbers in my 'recent recieved' though...and I know one of them are yours. When Bill's eyes got worse and he had to give up his electrical business (hard for a blind man to be an electrician!), his personality changed too. Then he got to drinking. As he's gotten accustomed to his new physical abilities (or lack thereof). The drinking has slowed down and he's more like the man I had fell in love with...in some ways, he's even better than that. Now & then, he'll drink too much and I see that 'oh pity me, the world hates me' come out. Ugh! He gets on 1- 2 HOUR lectures then! All I can do is sit there, bite my tongue, and remind myself that it's the Bacardi talking. Hopefully, Ed will come back around to being 'Ed' soon. When is court for your son? I'd say it's a good sign though that they let him out on house arrest. I wouldn't tell him that though. If they really wanted him locked up & throw away the key, he'd be behind bars right now. Hopefully, this is enough to scare him straight & sober! In the meantime, have personal hope in the fact that he isn't in jail right now. How'd that 3rd thing turn out? Let me know..k? Huggs!!!! Sherri

Angie- I am praying for you and your family! Take care and God Bless!!! Big hugs, Carmen

I'm so glad to see your face here again. I missed your posts. I'm sorry Ed is not himself. And I am sorry for the troubles with your son. You are in my prayers. You are not alone. My daughter got arrested for TWO DUI's in two months time just over a year ago and did her share of time in jail. It is a horrible experience that I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy. Keep your chin up the best you can. Annette

Angie You are on Ann and My prayer list. Turn it over to God and trust Him. Ann and I are here for you and Ed. You guys are great friends. You have given so much to us losers and now we are all here for you. Dan

Praying for you and your family. Hugs -- Tina

You and your family are in my prayers,,, i know the pain of having a son in trouble and on drugs.. got one myself. same as you he is a good guy, he isnt mean, would do anythign for any one.. he just has no brains when it comes to drugs. he needs help not prison. I pray every day that God will fill his heart with his gift and make it all go away. Hope Ed gets better,, you got your hands full. You can always come here and hopefully we can make you feel better... you are not alone and prayers are coming your way. Carla

About time your butt got back on here I was worried.. I almost stopped by last night on the way home from work.. Just to check on you!! We will HAVE to plan a Mexican night soon. Peggy said to let her know she wants to come!! I will tell her today when i get to work that you finally got back on line, More snow on Mon/Teu.. could be a big one depending on the airflow... Oh Joy! Even though you havent been online I have been praying every time you come to mind.. Linda

Angie, you have been in my prayers more often since talking with you at the baby shower. It must be really hard to see Ed going through this. He has been the strength for you in the past and now he really needs your strength to get through this. When a spouse is suffering, especially if it is our husbands, they tend to take it out on us. Sometimes it gets really rough to take. Men tend to feel that their manhood is being compromised if they can not do the work they have always done and be the provider for the family. This disease is affecting him both emotionally as well as physically. As far as your son is concerned, just love him while he is still at home. I am sure he knows that even though you are disappointed in the choices he made, you are not disappointed in him and you love him unconditionally. Unfortunately, he will have to pay for his mistake, but he will be a better person on the other end of it. Just remember that God never brings more into our lives than we are able to bear, even though it sometimes feels like we are drowning. He wants us to become closer to Him through the experiences that come into our lives. I am praying for you and you have a great support group here. Keep in touch. Karen