Mini breakdown--support appreciated

Hello, ok, I just had my first breakdown. A friend wrote me and asked me how I was doing and if I was worried. I started the e-mail............I"m worried it won't work. I'm worried about painful complications (I dont' tolerate pain well). I'm worried about doing something wrong and screwing thing up. I'm worried about 'going under' and possibly not waking up again. I'm worried about my kids if I do, and I'm worried about my kids if I don't. I'm worried about sticking to the pre-op diet. I'm worried about getting a stomach virus and causing the band to slip due to vomiting. ..................................................... So, after I wrote the e-mail I had a little breakdown. I guess it was good to get it down in writing, but then I realized I really didn't have anyone to talk to............................then I thought of you guys. I wish I had someone to call. I'm scared. Tania

Tania, I have had so many breakdowns on this journey its not funny. All the things u are feeling are totally normal. You can email me at [email protected]. I will give u my number and Im up all night so u can call me anytime u are having a breakdown and need someone who understands.

Tania, You've got mail! Sherri

Sweetheart you are normal... I would be worried if you weren't worried.. You are having major life saving surgery that will change your life forever... Vent here and know you are in many prayers. Linda

We all had the same worries. It is normal. I just had to keep reminding myself of all the problems and complications I could have if I didn't do it. You can do it and deal with the problems or complications 1 at a time IF they happen. I'll be thinking of you on the 14th

Tania, I understand completely girl... vent away... I share your worries .... we just have to give it to God... Jessyca

Tania, I had the Lap Band too and was having the same worries! There is so little pain involved following the surgery, you will be surprised! 4 tiny incisions is all I had. Today 'going under' isn't the scary thing it was in the past, with all the technologies they have they keep a close eye on you the whole time. I'm sure you'll be fine (I've had 5-6 surgeries in my lifetime, guess I'm somewhat of a pro by now). I don't think you have to worry too much about slipage, as long as you're carefull and chew chew chew you should be just fine. Trust me hunger won't be the problem, so you should be able to stick to the diet w/o too much trouble. Even with liquids be sure you sip slowly the first few days (gulping goes against my nature now). As far as the stomach bug, I had it 6 months after my surgery NASTY! but I had no problem with a slip. So rest easy and know all your angels here will be praying for you and are here if you need us! Hope

Hope, thank you so much!! I really appreciate everyone's help. You really addressed some of my concerns since you have gone through some of the issues of concern. It's odd, I was 35 before I ever set foot in a hospital as a patient!!! I've only been under anesthesia 2 times. One was voluntarily, I had my right saphenous vein stripped because of varicose veins. The other was unplanned and sudden when I could feel my second C-section. That time I only had about 30seconds, maybe less, to think about what was going on before I was out. I remember freaking out though. They had given me some anesthetic, but not enough that I was out and they started palpating my throat. I remember asking "What are you doing" and he said "I'm measuring you for a trach tube", BUT I freaked thinking they were giveing me a tracheotomy. I was going under thinking "No!!! I can breathe!!! Don't cut my neck!! I'll have a scar!!!" I asked my doctor later if I screamed and she said "Mmmm, I can't remember" I don't think they will ever tell you what you do or say. Ok, I got a chuckle out of that. I'll be okay tonight. Thank you for being there everyone!!! Tania

I have the same worries as you. I do not even know if I'll be able to get the surgery because of may age. I only know I have to do something because I weight 325 pounds and can hardly walk. Janie