Deja Vu

Today was my first day back to work and I feel like I almost never had surgery at all, and I don't mean that in a good way. The stress and work and worry is all back and I responded in true form by eating eating eating. I didn't eat anything that I wasn't supposed to, but I did eat what feels like half my weight in soy crisps and low carb yogurt. I feel bloated and disgusting. I hate it when I do this, and I'm so disheartened that it has happened again so quickly into the process. Years ago, before I had my children, I went through a pretty serious bulemic period, and I have found myself today wanting to "purge" because I can't stand this guilty feeling I have about the eating. I wonder when I will ever find a way to deal with my stress without stuffing my mouth.

Sharon~ I know its hard.... It's hard enough coming back to work after being on extended leave, and you have to learn how to deal with stress in a different way. Don't let yourself take the same road that you used to take. It doesn't solve anything, it just creates more problem. I would just chock this up as a learning experience, tomorrow is a new day so put it behind you. Spend a few moments thinking of things that you can do when you get stressed. Here are some things that help me: step outside for a few minutes, go for a short walk around the block, fill up the water bottle, close my eyes and put my head on my desk and just relax and breathe for a few minutes (it sounds silly but it really helps), write in a journal, look at pictures of when you were heavier, etc). Best of luck to you!! ((Hugs)) Jaimee

Hi, First off, quit beating yourself up! Next, remember you are feeding a baby tummy & it can only handle a little bit of food.If you aren't careful it will on you- and believe me-IT ISN"T PLEASENT!! PAIN & AGONY!!! Also, it can damage your tiny pouch- it hasn't healed yet fully. Your job sounds stressful - perhaps you can take a quick walk when you are wanting to eat. Sip your water- it does help fill you up. Try the flavor packets- like SF. crystal light- they do taste good.Also ,eat your protien first- it will fill you up faster. Watch out for "chips" of any kind. They can set you up for other "snacks". Just remind yourself why you decided to have the surgery- have a photo of yourself at your heaviest and look at it when tempted. You are so new to all of this- give yourself a break and keep focused on your recovery. Everything starts with the first step in the right direction. There will be a few "bumps" in the road- but you can get over/around/thru them!!!! Hang in there, be gentle with yourself .We are here for you! ((((gentle hugs)))) Ellen

Thanks you two.....I do appreciate the input.

can you drink while you work? just drink water? i know easier said than done...but your so new and you have this time to start new habits..plus you sure do not want to get sick....maybe you just felt like you ate too much?

its a purely emotional thing. I weigh no more than I did this morning, its all about "messing up" with the diet.....I think its one of the reasons I gave up dieting 15 years ago, because its gross to feel this bad about eating in general. Maybe I need another job, huh?