Need some advice/venting.....

Okay Family~ I need some advice or a major butt kicking! I don't know what my deal is but I have been really testing my limits past week or two. Xmas cookies, noodles, candy, etc. I used to be so afraid to eat anything "bad" because I had such a hard time the 1st year post op. But lately I've been testing my limits and eating stuff that I know I shouldn't be eating. I'm so frustrated with myself; I swore I would not do this and here I am.... I'm afraid that I won't be able to get back on the problem and afraid that I'll gain weight back. If I don't stop it now I'll be in big trouble. Has anyone else gone through it? Do you have any advice on getting over this hurdle? I'm in a major slump and I need help. I'll be 16 months post op on New Years Eve and I still want to lose another 30 pounds or so. Thank you! Jaimee

Jamie, Ive been having the same problems this week. I wish I had an answer or advice for you but I dont. Ive been so upset with myself. I cried all day today even called Carmen and cried on her shoulder. My husband has been so supportive today. Im sure Im driving him nuts. Tonight he took me out becouse I was so upset he thought we should just get out of the house. Ive been wanting to post and ask the ones that never made it to their goal and the ones that have had to have a revision where they were when things went wrong. Im hoping I can get back on the wagon soon but what if I fail at this like I have at every diet I ever did in my entire life. Im 1/2 way to my goal and Ive not ever thrown up.. not since day one of surgery. Ive never been sick....I told my husband today that I wish every time I had something I shouldnt that it would make me so sick I would never touch it again....but no such luck...I can eat anything and I never have a problem. I would love any advice from those that are out a yr or more and can tell me the warning signs of failing at this before its to late and what I can do to change all these crazy brain games. I like Carmen think I need a shrink...to fix my brain. Dr C forgot to fix it when she fixed my tummy.

Mariah, I really relate to your post. I think that's my greatest fear, that this won't work for me, or I'll mess it up. I was afraid to tell people about it at first for that reason... afraid people would laugh at me, if I went to the extent of gastric bypass, and still ended up fat. I wouldn't beat yourself up too hard though. We're all human, and going to make mistakes. All you can do is get up, brush yourself off and try again. Linda Vicory

Thanks Linda, I have been a good girl since Christmas. Ive lost 4 lbs since the big day. I got on the scale this morning. I am feeling much better today. I just had a meltdown after the holidays. I think its a very emotional time of the yr and I was very emotional. I do still worry about this working for the long term I have since day one. The hard thing for me is going to visit family that have candy sitting out all over the place. I dont keep it here but when I go visit family its everywhere. Its like having a drunk in recovery and taking him to a bar that has free drinks. It just makes me go insane. I love visiting family but Im going to have to limit it now until I have better control of my old addictions....and have made new ones. I do think the counseling would still be a great idea. Thanks for you imput too Mariah

Mariah~ Thanks for your response. I'm right there with you and Carmen and the shrink thing. If you think about it, we all ended up morbidly obese because food was our best friend. Its like you've lost your best friend and now this fear of failure sets it. When you told people about your decision to have WLS did people tell you that they know someone who had it and they gained weight back, etc? I ran into a lot of that, and I am so afraid that it will happen to me. I don't know why I even listen to them, I guess its insecurity. I knew going into this that it was going to be hard and I have no regrets. I know there isn't a simple solution, but don't you wish they could just go into your head and turn off that switch that wants food? I wish I lived closer to you guys, it be nice to get together for coffee and talk. Feel free to email me if you'd like to talk some more, me email address is [email protected]. Jaimee

I am over 18 months out.. havent lost a pound in 6 months.. Havent gained thank God but I havent lost because I do stupid stuff. The key is to write it down.. every day every thing that goes into your mouth write it down. then once a week look at it and figure out why you did it what you can change.. I like you am so fearful of regaining.. I set goals.. not going to eat white things.. sugar, bread, pasta.. White things turn into instant sugar.. BAD... Exercise... do it!! I find myself very lax in this... need to get back on track!! I have the machines I need but the new life I have gets in the way of the even better one waiting for me if I really work at it.. I have several things working against me.. I am over 50. I am hypo thyroid, and I am LAZY.. got to admit it where I see it... Good luck and as long as you remain fearful of regaining there is hope you wont... Linda

THANK YOU LINDA, This is the kind of info I was looking for. I know diets inside and out and about exercise. Its the doing it that sometimes is the problem. So far I do stay away from the white things. Maybe once a week if that I may have some mashed potato's or 1/2 a wheat toast or roll if we are out to eat when Andys home. When u stopped losing 6 months ago...was there anything you changed? This was what I was looking for when I asked the questions. I really was glad to see you respond. It means alot to me. Did you stop measuring food, stop exercising...What I was looking for was what at that time do u think started the stall for you. I can so agree on the lazy thing too. Im not over 50 yet but its getting close...Im over 40 and I also have thryroid problems and am on synthroid for that. I have a gym membership on hold and after the new yr I need to get my hinny back in there too. I was going along smoothly but everyone was on my case about taking to much protein. I was even told at my 5 month check up that I should be reducing how much protien I was drinking but when I did that is when I started falling apart....cravings started coming back. I started the day after Christmas back on my old program of low carbs. I eat all the veggies I can stand but no other carbs. I drink alot of protien and within 3 days now I think I have my sanity back... I dont think I will be changing my protein intake again anytime soon. Those drs and dietians will just have to yell at me about my protein...I dont care. Thanks again for sharing. Mariah

Thanks Linda! I'm going to start writing everything that I eat down, I think that will help. I did that when I went through the post op diet and it helped. And I'm with you on getting back on track with exercise. I was so committed and then the holiday**** and I had every excuse in the book! Thanks again for you advice and words of wisdom! Jaimee

your HUMAN...there your answer.....not sure i ever tested my limits, as i have never dumped.or maybe i do not have any????? keep an eye on yourself, and the fact you NOTICE this is a good thing...

Thanks Angie!! Your very wise to not know if you dump. I always heard that the key to success with this is not testing your limits far enough to know if you dump. Jaimee