A warm glow!

That is what I feel right now. Thank you all so much for showing me kindness and love when I needed it most. I was so scared to put my thoughts out there like that, and you all never even hiccupped at them. I just feel so comforted knowing that I am not alone or crazy. The support that comes from this group of people is unmatched and amazing. Thank you for including me in your lives. Carmen I will respond to you individually as soon as the tears stop!

we have all been in that boat and know how you are feeling...you get so use to those scales moving down...and when they don't it is like ooh no am i going to be one of the ones that do not lose...and it is scarey when you have been obese and took this step for surgery... since i am 26 months out and maintained, and i cheat, i am bad...but i also have maintained my weight.....thats the good thing....not lost anything but not gained....I will take it and run......

Carmen I'm so happy that it sounds like you are feeling a little better today. You are an amazing person. I don't know how you handle all you do with 8 kids. Take each day as it comes. No one is perfect. I love this site also even if I don't respond to all the messages, I read them all. In the morning I check my e-mail then come straight to this site to see what all my friends have to say. Keep smileing ::

Hi Jan, Yes I am feeling better today! I am going to make it to the other side of this mood. I have been thinking a lot about what is going on and one conclusion that I have come to is... I focus each and every day on making my body physically healthy, and I think that I have forgotten to work on the spiritual side of things. I know that my health is more than physical; I just forgot to take care of it for awhile. So for now I am going to try and spend some time recovering my smile with a holistic and spiritual approach. If anyone has a favorite self healing book please share it with us!!! Thanks again everyone, Carmen

Carmen, I am so happy you are doing better. I think your post is one that many identify with in one way or another. It is all about control and how we need to readjust to it in our life now. We have spent so many years battling and being self distructive it comes easy to us. I totally understand about the eating bad...there are times I eat some things I shouldn't and it is amazing how QUICKLY the mind tells you that you have lost it and will slide down the mountain and be a failure. I have learned to incorporate some semi-healthy wicked treats into my routine and still stay on track I focus on the lifelong committment I have made to this journey and realize today is only a smal part of the whole picture. If I falter today I pick myself back up tomorrow and go on, forgiving myself and knowing I am not perfect. But my mental mind is alot healther now and I think we have been so healthy educated thru this surgery that we are so acutely aware when we make bad choices that we tend to overmagnify them. Hang in there sweetie you are fine and you have a bunch of us there to help uplife each other as needed. You are doing Marvelous Dahling! Hugs! Marianne

Marianne, Thank you for the support and kind words. I wish I could get to ware you are. You are always so right on about feeling happy with yourself. I am so jealous!! I think more than looking good I would like to feel like I look good. You sure have that one down. I am going to try and work on that. Thank you for reminding me that this is for the rest of my life and not just this year! I really need to remember this and that when I have a bad moment all is not lost. You are amazing. Thank You!! Carmen