They're Here!!

Well within the past half hour the nerves have finally hit. I am home alone and on the verge of tears. I am really scared I can't do this! I just organized my vitamins, put away my clothes from the clothing exchange, and organized my pantry last night. I went to dinner and had my "last supper" with my parents. I am a little over 39 hours from surgery. I am not scared of dying, I am scared my life is going to be miserable. I'm scared of letting everyone down and screwing up yet again. Man I don't know...I am just rambling. I think a hot shower and a good cry are in order. BLAH! Sam

You will be fine and you will do great. I felt the same way as you do before my surgery. Not one day goes by that I regret what I did. I'm not not going to sugar coat this, it is the HARDEST thing I have ever done, but the rewards outweigh the rough times. Your life will be so much happier and you will feel great on the inside and look great on the outside. The first 4 wks are the toughest. The liquid diet stinks. but after you hit that 4 wk mark, it all gets better. The first time you step on those scales at your first post-op appt. and see the accomplishment of all your hard work it will make this all worth while. At my first post-op visit I had lost 25lbs. i don't think I have ever lost 25lbs in my life. To see the smile on my wife's face when she saw that number was priceless. Just believe in yourself and have confidence in yourself and you will do awesome. You have to focus on the reason you are doing this and never lose that focus. Good Luck, You'll do fine.. Brian

You will be fine. Just think of all the great people on these boards you are praying for you. They have all been through this. Yes I have the fear of letting people down & failing again... But this time you will not. Praying for you. God is in control - give this all to him. Kristi Surgery: 8-1-06

I am four years out and it continues to be the best thing I have ever done for myself. Goo dluck to you. Nerves are normal. This is serious surgery. You will learn how to change your life and be happy at a healthier weight. HUGS. Christina

Sam Sweetie...I hope this morning finds you feeling better. Nerves are normal. We all with through that hon. And we all survived them. You will too. You aren't going to let anyone, including yourself down. Yes, WLS changes your life..but oh so much to the better. And sweetie, I have never, ever, regretted having the surgery. Life will not be miserable because you are finally going to find out what life is about! Your old life was about living to eat. Very soon, food will not be top priority in your life. Living will be! Life is very sweet when you are chained to an addiction. And yes, food is an addiction...only unlike tobacco, drugs, or alcohol, you HAVE TO have food in order to survive. WLS helps you to have it, without it having you. We are all in your corner sweetie. Things will be fine. Depending on how nuts things are at work, I'll try to get up there to see you Tuesday night. And you know I'm gonna try to drag your butt out of bed and go for a lap! huggs, Sherri

You will have days when you think "OH Sh#@ why did I do this... then there will be days "OH Sh$@ why didnt I do this sooner" Then there will be days that you thinkg wow!! How wonderful!! I have NEVER lost like this before.. then one day you will just be healthy... and live your life the way it was always intended to be lived... I would be worried about you if YOU were NOT worried about the surgery.. this is a BIG step one not to be taken lightly, or uninformed.. but I think you have been here long enough to know the ups and downs.. so enjoy the journey!! see ya on the loosin side!! Linda

Sam, As it's been said, nerves are normal. THe liquid diet DOES suck. I could have MURDERED someone for a sandwich the first day I got home. But it all passes, I promise. Soon you'll be burning the hallways up at St. V thinking " I should have done this YEARS ago!" We all get out WLS when the time is right for us though. THink of all you had to do just to get this far. NO turning back now! Life post op isn't miserable! It just means lots of mexican food (beans & beans until 3 months, then rice too!) haha

Sam, I totally understand what you are talking about. I felt the exact same way and 6 months later I sometimes still feel the same. Personally, this was one of the best things I have ever done in my life. I cannot believe how much better I feel, physically and emotionally. It has given me a new confidence I didn't have before. I'm a much nicer person than I was before (except on the WLS board) I hardly ever sit down anymore and I'm hardly ever home. The energy just astounds me! You will do great and in 6 months you will look back and wonder what the heck you were so worried about. I'll be praying for you, and I'll try to get up to see you. Let us know as soon as you can how you are doing.

Sam, nerves are a normal part of the process the day before surgery. Just think how much better you are going to be feeling. You will not regret ever doing it. My thoughts and prayers will be with you tomorrow. Post when you can and let us know how you are doing after surgery. Enjoyed meeting you Saturday at the exchange. Blessings.

Hi Sam, I seen your post and remembered myself 5 weeks ago being exacly where you are right now. It is a very nervous, tight stomache feeling. I PROMISE you it will be the best thing you could ever do for yourself. I feel like a new person. The first week was the hardest, and it just keeps getting better. I was walking 7 hours after surgery (very slowly mind you) but the key is to WALK. It seems like each time you walk it gets a little better. I lived in Indpls growing up and really miss that state. I love the seasons!! Today, here in Texas it is 104 with heat index of 110. (HOT) My Granny lived in Greenwood, she passed in 02...I still have family in Indpls and get there about every 2 or 3 years. I am so excited for you!!!!! ( I know easy for me to say, but it will be for you too soon) I have lost 35lbs in 5 weeks. Been doing this thing called excerise (joined Curves..its a great way to get started) Have a protein drink to start my morning now everyday. Please let me know how you are doing and know all of us here at OH are wrapping out arms around you ( feel the love??) Karen