Is this normal?

Ok guys, so I still havent sent in my paper work to the insurance. Time just got away from me on friday, and I didnt get to the post office. **pause for you all to yell at me for not mailing in my paperwork** But my real reason for posting here is to ask if thoughts of this surgery all the time is normal. It consumes me. Thats all I ever think about, and am already thinking of ways to word an appeal letter. Maybe I should think about how to word the letter to my family when I do get approved. (They are all 100% supportave, btw) Did any of you have this happen to you? The surgery is all that you think about 24/7? I have found that I am losing sleep because of it. I lay in bed at night, thinking about how much my life is going to change, and part of me wants to be excited, but part of me is scared shi*less, because I dont do well with denial. Please help with your experiences. Please let me know what you went thru, and how you handled it. I do have to admit though, the anti-anxeity meds are helping. Thanks in advance for all your support, and I know, I know, "Get those papers in!!!" S.

Yep this is perfectly normal, and if it wasnt on your mind 24/7 then you might not be as ready as you are since you think about it all the time :0) When I began my journey around 4 years ago, I couldnt read enough about it, this site was my WLS bible I read it every day all day and night it seemed like 24/7. Now that I am at goal and healthier I dont spend as much time on here but I do check in daily. My husand and daughter are both 13 months out and doing GREAT and very close to goal. All of the feeling are normal, from fear to anxiety to nervous to numb. Its a whirlwind. Were all here for support, and I would do it again in a heartbeat. Now goahead and send in those papers, and if you get a denial, it they just may need more info. Are kyou including a letter of Medical necessity from your pcp? and Yourself? Be sure to include all comorbids and how being obese is affecting your life. Good luck to you and enjoy the ride!! Rosemary

Scott I would never ever say Im normal but Ive been doing the same thing. I read several boards. Ive been researching every spare moment I have. Im sure u can tell by how much I post on here. I cant wait to have my surgery and I think about it all the time. Its funny that for so many years I didnt have any hope I didnt know there was an answer for me and now that Ive found it Im so impatient. I cant wait to begin my new life. Good luck in your jouney Mariah

your normal........lol.........it is all you can do to pay attention to anything else....and should you get a denial it is even worse....cos then you are in for the fight of your life

You are probably obsessing because YOU HAVENT MAILED IN YOUR PAPERWORK!!! Mail it in and get a good night sleep you will need it when you have lost the weight and are out dancing 4 or 5 times a week. HEHE,, Besides rest will help the healing process. Linda

You are absolutely normal! Before surgery, all I talked about was how much I wanted to have the surgery. Now that I've had it (6 1/2 weeks post op, down 36 lbs.), I've had to make myself talk about something other than how much I've lost, how my clothes are fitting, whether or not I'm getting in enough protien and water, etc. I'm trying to get back to a broader focus, but it is hard. We work so hard to gather all of the information and then call the insurance company repeatedly to check on the status. And then once we are approved we go through the manic highs and lows of "I can't wait to start losing", "what was I thinking, they are going to rearrange my insides!". It is all normal, but once you are on the losing side and find yourself doing things that you couldn't do before, you begin to feel like reality has just started setting in. And your future looks so bright, you gotta wear shades (as the song goes)! Just relax, get your paperwork in and enjoy the ride! Cindy