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Hello ILLINOIS!

I guess I have been MIA lately.  sorry about that.

The Sunday before Memorial Day, we had an "issue" with David that kind of threw me.  He turned 21 on the 15th.  Every year, he goes to the "Wing Ding" concert in Rockford.  Long story shorter......the police and paramedics called Amber at about 2:45 in the afternoon saying that someone needed to pick David up as he was SO intoxicated.  The first call was from the police saying that they would take him to jail if no one could pick him up.  The second was from the paramedics hinting that he may need medical attention.  Amber went to get him and brought him to me.  It was hard for me to see him in such shape and the outcome of our trip was in question.  I got him home and into bed and he slept mostly until it was time to leave on Monday.  It seems that he had heat exhaustion along with intoxication.

We left at 4:30 am on Memorial Day for a drive to New Orleans.  David, Todd, Liv and I in my car.  Interesting.  The drive down was long but not bad as David slept most of it.  We finally arrived at our hotel about 9:00 pm, and made it over to Decatur St. for dinner.  Thank God that Liv was with us as the boys were not much fun.  We got our aunt's ashes spread on Tuesday, went to the Aquarium of the Americas and other stops on Wednesday.  We stopped at a FANTASTIC barbeque place before we left on Thursday and stopped halfway for the night.  We arrived home about 3:00 pm last Friday.

I had a harder time on this trip than I expected.  New Orleans in not really associated with drinking in my mind, but the negativity and cussing from David along with Todd's indifference made it a challenge.  I did not have to drink over any of it and got to meetings as soon as I returned.  I have a therapist appointment today and am almost back to my pre-trip spiritual self.  It is a lesson though on how easy it is to lose sight of my sobriety.

Liv and I went to see, "Blended" last night and it was cute.  I read, "The Fault in Our Stars" on the trip and we are going to see that on Friday.  It is good to have a daughter that works at the theater!

Also.....I don't know if I told you, but she has received a small bit over $2,000.00 in scholarships so far!  She came away from awards night with many!

Time to jump in the shower, but I wanted to touch base with you all!

I hope you all have a great day!

Sharon, a pot of soup sounds good. One of my favorite things to make.

LISA

Hello everyone

I had a busy Saturday I was running errands and got my hair done.  Sunday I was in all day working.  Working on work stuff....my boss should be happy. I did talk to Amanda yesterday...that's always nice.  She is eagerly awaiting her package.  Oh and she sent me a package for my birthday!!!  I can't wait to see what she got me!!! Which I was thinking...I think this birthday will be a bit depressing.  Amanda is gone.  And I am just not in a birthday mood...not that I'm not going to try,

I try to stay up beat and happy but when I am alone...its hard not to let my thoughts wander.  I can't believe it's been over a month and I can't just get over this.  I don't hope we get back together.  I am hoping that one day I can find someone else.  I find myself wondering if it will ever happen for me.  I just can't seem to shake the feeling of loss.  Most of the time I can carry on and have no problems...it always seems to be an issue on the weekend when I am alone for a length of time.  Ugh....

Well I have to get going...have a good day all. 

Hello everyone

I went to the Sox game yesterday.  It was fun...even though we lost.  Then afterwards they had a fireworks show.  It was an impressive fireworks show.  I have to tell you it was freezing cold.  I was smart and brought a jacket but it wasn't enough.  I shivered all night long.  We tailgated before the game.  I had a grilled turkey burger that seemed to fill me up completely.  I had no Ballpark goodies.  I really had no urge to eat any of that crap.  So I had sipped on some water all night.

Today I am getting my hair done.  Doing my usual cleaning up.  I will also go to Chipotle for dinner since I didn't yesterday.  I figured what the heck and then I won't have to worry about making dinner.  I also have a ton of work to do tody and tomorrow.  I brought home so much work I had to bring it home in a post office bin.  And yes I do get paid for the work I do at home.  I just so much to catch up on since I called in sick this week. 

I have to say I am able to go out and have fun and lose myself in fun.  I forget my stress and everything else.  I do have to say my boss is being a little more...I don't know...I don't want to say nicer...but she is not as mean towards me.  I guess she is seeing I a capable worker and not to mention I have met every deadline she wanted me to meet.

Well I am going to relax a little and finish cleaning....have a good day