I need an angel

Goodmorning all, Well, like Konni, I too am getting ready for the 2.5 hr trip to ST Louis to start all of my pre-testing. We will leave tonight and spend the night, come home tomorrow, then do it all again Wednesday. My surgery is next Tuesday the 18th. I had quite the squalling day yesterday. It started at church when my Uncle asked me if this was the "right" thing to do. Then he started to cry...which obviously opened my ducts. I believe with all of my heart this is the only thing LEFT to do! I am still in need of an Angel please. Also, I am still pondering the letters to the family thing. If I write the letters am I weakin my faith? I believe the Lord isn't finished with me yet. He will take wonderful care of me. But I also know He loves the weak. Guess I am covered either way. This is a great place to vent. You all are awesome. Thanks for listening. Pam p.s. my sinuses are killing me........tylenol isn't working

Pam, You are doing the right thing so just hang in there. I am still early out myself but if you need anything buzz me and I will do my best. As for the letters, can i make a suggestion that I stole from someone eles on the boards and it worked wonderfully. I did not write "good-bye" letters. Instead I went to factory card outlet and chose cards for those that I wanted to share stuff with and made surgery promises, i spoke in the card of how thankfull I was for thier support so no matter what happend they knew, i then mentioned things I wanted to do as my health improved with the different people. This way it was all positive. The cards were given to them to read while I was in surgery so there were positive thoughts. Some things were emtional promises some were things i wanted to do. My daughter was so thrilled with hers she took it to school and bragged Anyways, those I chose to give them too appreciated them so much and this way they know now how I feel and we can continue on this journey together, (instead of if something had happened). Hope this helps giovanna 250/215/130

Thank You Giovanna, I appreciate the help. That is a wonderful idea! I get so emotional. I hope that is normal. Hopefully, it will be old hat soon. Sounds like you are doing great. Keep up the good work. Thanks again, Pam

Giovanna, I just wanted to jump in and say that I think that was a wonderful idea! I hadn't seen it before my own surgery, or else I would have done that. Thanks for passing it along; I'm sure a lot of people will want to go that route. Rich Lap RNY 7/28/04 440/315/160

just wanted to put my opinion in I feel letters are a great way to help your loved really see what you were doing and to help them get over the lost. I think this doesn't hinder your faith. Noone knows when God will call you to heaven, It is really great to get a chance to say goodbye just in case. Good luck to you on your great journey. I said a prayer for you

Thank you so much Deliah. I agree with what you say but then again it could happen anytime of anyday. I can't fear it or else I don't have much of a life at all. Anyway, I will probably write a valentine card for each one of them. They all know how much I love them and how I TRY NOT to smother them.....lol (NOT) Hope all goes well for you. I will be watching. God Bless, Pam