Can you believe...

I actually had to *LIE TO MY MOTHER* about not wanting surgery last night!! I posted the story on my profile but I'm still just reeling from the irony.. Aside from that, just got back from the pulmonologist and great news: I HAVE LUNGS!! I'm kidding.. I mean, of course I have lungs.. but they gave me some breathing tests and then he said there is no condition that would cause him to prevent me from having surgery.. he said I won't even need to see him again before surgery. He spoke very seriously about blood clots and explained the whole blood thinner thing. I wanted to blanche at the thought of giving myself injections but you know, I'm just not willing to let something ridiculous like my stupid fear of needles STOP me from coming through this process with FLYING colors. He also gave me a pulse ox machine to measure my oxygen levels when I sleep -- that'll be completed on Monday morning when I drop off the machine at the office. So mark another step off my list.. Next is my group on the 2nd and my ultrasound on the 7th. So many things happening.. I'm so happy. Still no surgery date yet.. but at this point, I'm a happy girl. Stef

HOORAY!!!! I had to give myself Lovenox and Heparin twice a day in the stomach while I was pregnant. It wasn't fun but ya do what ya gotta do. Just make sure you pinch the skin first...it kinda numbs it. I'm off to read your profile!

Congratulations Stef, it seems like everything is falling into place. I had some trouble with my mom as well, regarding the surgery, she's the one that suggested I have it done, before the thought even occured to me. Well when I started to look more into what it was all about and decided that this was something I wanted to do, I researched and researched and since I thought she supported it I always talked to her about the things I learned, etc. Well anyway to make a long story short, one day she decided that it was too risky and she no longer wanted me to do it. Instead of telling me this she just became despondent and when ever I brought up the subject she didnt' want to talk about it. So I continued on and didnt' involve her in what was going on as much as I had in the past, because I was determined that this was something I wanted to do. I had not involved her so much that When I told her about my insurance approval, she was like, you still want to have that done?! Go figure. Anyway, When I had my pre-op testing and we met with the surgeon. It was a very emotional session and still I was determined. She stood by myside and took care of me when I got home. Not too long ago, maybe a couple of weeks ago, we were talking and she told me that she was glad that I didn't let her comments or behavior deter me from having surgery. She told me that she was scared and when she looked at me nothing was different to her, she just saw her beautiful baby. But she is glad that I did it, because I am happier, healthier and more alive than I was before and she's thankful for that. All in all if you have decided that this is for you, continue on your journey. Your mom will come around. In my opinion, the benefits outweigh the risks tremendously. Good Luck to you. ShaunTeah

OOPS, Sorry I gave my two cents before reading your story. But anyhow, good luck to you on your journey. ShaunTeah

it's okay ShaunTeah.. I'm glad you posted your story. Maybe your story will help someone else.. This is why I love you guys.. you care!! Stef