Just Moved Here.... and need friends to chat with before I go Crazy!

Hello, Just moved to Illinois from Texas... big change. The move was worth it my husband got a new job with INSURANCE!! And I also see that there are doctors and hospitals close by... yeah... Now I need to find a family dr? or Can I go straight to a surgeon? Here is my message I posted 3 months ago.... just so can know a little bit more about me.... No more light at the end of my tunnel I have been over weight since I was 8 years old and has been on every diet know to man willing or forced. I remember my childhood it wasnt a great one, but I learned to just be myself a had a hand full of friends that saw me for me and not my weight, they made life bearable for me. Now that I am older the only thing that has made it bearable for me is my two small boys, they love me for me and they dont care that I am fluffy... Some days are hard for me and some are not, but lately it has been hard.. and it is hard to talk to any of my family about how I feel so I just wanted to share my feelings with someone who might want to listen. My boys are gone this week for summer vacation with their grandmother so I am alone and sad... Back in 1998, I had medical insurance and a dr that said my only hope was a RNY that was about 168 lighter than i am now, but insurance wouldnt even look at paying for it basicly reason they gave me was I did this to myself now I can undo it. Now it is 2004 and I have a bmi of 54%, I have no job or medical insurance. I have been very sick with my blood sugar, breathing problems, knee and back ache and major headaches I finally got medicaid thinking okay someone is looking out for me there is was a little hope at the end of my tunnel. Then again I was shot down couldnt find a doctor that took medicaid. When I was feeling down and hopless again my friends, who love me for me, took me out. And I thought this was a sign because there I meet Bo and lot of others that had been through this. I was given this website. So there again was light at the end of my tunnel talking to people on this site and doing on the foot work, I had a list of doctors --happy me--, then once again my light was put out...none of the doctors on the list took medicaid any more and didnt have anyone they could refer me too. One doctor told me to get a job that had insurance, hum, that sounds like a good plan.... but been there done that... been looking for work for a while now, it the people would just look at my resume and not my looks I would have a job by now and insurance. So I go back to the same thing I used to hear when I was young child and growing up from my father..."you will also be fat stupid and ugly, no one wants you". So aleast some of you have light at the end of your tunnel.

Welcome to IL not quite sure what part pekin is from but i am online in the evenings on yahoo sassynproud04 aol aim shrinkingwoman04 i had my surgery 15 months ago today lost 150 gained 10 lost 5 so 145 lost If i can help you in any way please let me know marsha

Hi Nicole Welcome to Illinois My dad and step-mom live in Pekin, nice place. As for finding a PCP or surgeon, I think it'd depend on what your insurance requires so you might start with them. You're so close to Peoria and I know there's at least one surgeon there, can't think of the name right now, sorry. You're also only an hour away from Springfield ... where my beloved surgeon is lol. I wish you the best luck with getting things started and feel free to email me anytime if you have any questions! Cathy