ADMITTING MY FAULTS

1st of all i posted a vew down that my stomach hurts and i have gained WELL LET ME SAY SOMETHING THOUGHT I DIDNT LIST MY DOWN FALLS AND I DONT FEEL THAT I NEEDED TO I WILL SAY THIS MUCH I DID ADMIT BAD HABITS TO COME BACK I HAVE BEEN SMOKING, DRINKING LOTS OF TEA AND SUCKING ON SUGAR FREE PEPPERMINTS AS WELL AS HAVING STARBUCKS AND NOT GETTING MY PROTEIN IN!! THIS IS ALL MY FAULT HOWEVER I REALIZED I HAVE THE PROBLEM AND I AM NOW PICKING MYSELF BACK UP AND STARTING OVER!! WE ALL HAVE OUR DOWN FALLS AND I DIDNT FEEL I HAD TO TELL WHAT I WAS FAILING OUT BUT I WILL NO AND BE HONEST THANKS FOR UNDERSTANDING

Well, you had these downfalls before surgery and it obviously doesn't make them disappear. The nice thing about surgery is it looks like your downfalls are better able to get back under control. Your weight fluctuations are not as large as before surgery and it becomes a bit more manageable. Though I am sure in no way Easier. We all have our internal battles and ( DARN) they don't just disappear. Even I right now, am trying to diet and sheesh I fall down and pick myself up again. It is relentless. Perhaps people who have surgery are smaller now...but other than the changes the surgeries made, they are still the metabolism, and gene make up of everything of an obese person. We just have a tool to better fight it. I will keep you in my prayers, Blessings, Katie single homeschooling mom of 4

things will get back on track for you. as long as you dont allow yourself to stay on that track and you KNOW what your doing isnt good for you, I"m sure you'll be fine. I'll keep you in my thoughts. Good Luck!! If you ever need to talk, you can IM me... lora_1994 on yahoo.

The great thing is you see what it is that is causing you to not be successful. You have come so far and knowing what the problem is is half the battle. Get your sh*t together and you will be back on track in NO TIME! Keep Us Updated! OH...and keep a food diary if you aren't already. Remember...EVERYTHING that goes in needs to be written down.

Marsha, I've seen your posts on the board a few times about how fearful you are with the weight gain and the fact that you are hungry all the time. I remember you went to your Dr to check the pouch size, etc. To no avail. I guess I would ask myself one question. Why am I eating so much, and consistently doing the things I should not be doing? You are obviously a bright, witty woman...you have a family that loves you, and friends here on the board and elsewhere...so what's lacking? Are you bored, lonely, depressed? It sounds like you're turning to anything you can to avoid dealing with the REAL problem (could be any of the above, or something else entirely) but I would wager it's something in your head and heart that's making you want to turn back to food/bad behavior. I know you're smart enough to know this already...I'm sure you've already had this conversation with yourself...it sounds like you just don't know what to do about it. I say this...quit obsessing over the symptoms ("I HAVE BEEN SMOKING, DRINKING LOTS OF TEA AND SUCKING ON SUGAR FREE PEPPERMINTS AS WELL AS HAVING STARBUCKS AND NOT GETTING MY PROTEIN IN!!") and start looking at the cause. Talk to someone about what's on your mind...but first and foremost BE HONEST with YOURSELF! The mind is a wonderful thing, but it can be a curse when our hearts and minds are all mixed up and we choose to ignore them. Blessings be to you and yours Anne