Excited and having second thoughts!!!

I'm starting to worry about my decision to have the lap band (IF I CAN HAVE IT) I worry about sabotaging myself since it will be easier with the band. But then I worry about what if i stretch my pouch with the RNY GOD HELP ME I"M GOING IN SANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL What if i can get the band and I lose my public aid and I need a fill??? will my insurance company pick up the cost.(My union is trying to get the part timers insurance bene's when the new contract is negotiated ).. what if what if what if???????? I'm bouncing off the walls worrying about this stuff!!! QUICK SOMEONE SLAP ME!!! Ok I have vented I might be back again..... to vent some more.... Michelle and I go to DR. Rays office on Monday... 4 hour drive.. its funny we tend to be able to talk about something and everything during the trip so luckily its not boring!!! WIsh us luck and wish me some sanity!!!! You know this would be easier if ever freakin surgeon I ask "which surgery would you want your daughter to have" wouldnt answer it with the surgery that is THEIR specialty!!! LOL Ok now I'm done!! Debby

OK, Debby, I don't want to make things worse BUT... (sorry) From what I understand, IDPA does NOT cover your refills for the band. I know that is what I was told when I went to the informational meeting so you may want to check into that. I am not getting the band because I KNOW I can (and am more than happy to) graze and the band will make it easier to sabotage myself. I am also not getting the band because of IDPA not covering my fillups. LOL I know that the RNY having the malabsorbtion thing is the route for ME. I know grazing could be detrimental to my success as an RNY patient. I just know that I am aware of what to expect with RNY and I know what NOT to do more. KWIM? I'm more comfortable with it since my husband had it and I have experienced everything. I'm not comfortable with not knowing if I need a refill or not for the band and what if I don't have the money to get it filled? Do they sell that on the corner like crack? Make sure you find out if IDPA will pay for your fill ups. Also, find out what TYPE of eater you are. Are you a grazer, bloater or sweeter? That will help you know what is the best surgery for YOU. Good Luck! I hope I didn't make things too much worse. ;) You know I love ya! Melissa

Hey Deb, luck we can get but there is no way in he** that you can ever get your sanity back. It has been gone way to long.