PAIN!

Pain – it sometimes comes in many forms. From the physical to the emotional and I have had my share of the former in the last couple of months. Physical for me recently was in the form of cellulitis in my lower left shin. It was painful, an itchy wound, doctor visits, anticipated test results and the wonder if the journey to Alaska would come to fruition. On top that all of the final preparation for the trip and yes we were able to go on our dream trip to Alaska. I guess you can say that the issue with the infection did not overshadow the whole trip. I now look down at the minor scar on my leg and think to myself that it is nothing compared what was going through my brain and thoughts before we left for our trip. Pain in this past week was in the form of a prep for a scheduled diagnostic test – yuck  . . . I will say no more. At least it is over but I have a bruise on my forearm from the IV. This too will pass. As my mom would say – it is far enough away from your heart – you will live!

Pain – another pain recently is that I am about to loose my favorite Chief. He is retiring. I am so sad and I will miss him so much but I know that he can only take the heat on the top for so long. It is tough in a local government entity to do what he does for only so long. A new era is coming (this will be my fifth Chief I have worked under) and I am hoping that the transition will be smooth and my final few years at IPD will not be too tough to finish out. The Chief before him was a “bastich” and I hope to never have to relive someone like him again and if that comes about I will be retiring sooner rather than later. I only have four more years until Medicare!

Pain – the emotional side . . . came recently and today it hit home. Now some background. About the time we got back from our trip at the end of June we wandered over to a neighbor’s back yard (two doors away) on a Sunday afternoon as most of us do on weekends. The hostess happened to mention – well, we are not able to invite the neighbors to (insert name) wedding coming up on Aug 1 because we were given only so many invites for us to have. I first should have known that we were not invited because I did not get invited to a shower. We said when is the wedding and she mentioned today’s date. We mentioned we saw your son on the train in May and he said it was in 2015 this date and we said we will remember that date because it is one of our birthdays.

Long story short – all of the neighbors were invited to the wedding today and we were not. (We have a pretty close neighborhood with most of us at least congenial to one and all. ) We saw all of them in their finery coming to and fro. From the church, home and then back to the reception while some let their dogs out and then left again. We are so hurt. We feel like a dagger was plunged into our hearts. There have been parties back and forth between houses (our house more than others) and this is the thanks we got. We look back now on the fact that we think the hostess had a guilty conscience with not inviting us and that is why she felt she needed to “explain” the non invite. We are baffled and do not know why we were left out. I have cried all night over this. We are not sure what caused this about face.

I have not turned to food over this. I have a party tomorrow to go to or as my family calls it a “great together”. This is another name for a family reunion.

At least it is dark right now and I do not need to look at the dark houses in the neighborhood nor do I need to look at my red swollen eyes from crying all night. I do not cry very often and I only do when I have been hurt deeply.

Thank you for reading . . .

Christine, Sorry you are going through this. Being left out can hurt more than physical pain. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make it go away.

Connie

Thank you. Still prone to some tears and I cannot read what I wrote anymore as it still hurts so much. It will be good to get out of the house today and forget the neighborhood for a while.

Christine

I am so sorry to hear about this. I cannot believe that they did this!  My first thought is that they forgot your names by accident and then found no way to add them after the  invites went out. That may be a possibility.  They tried to cover up their mistake with a dumb lie thinking it was better than the truth.  Regardless, what they did was oh so hurtful!  I cannot believe that this was done!  You have always talked about your great neighbors. 

I understand how hurtful this must be to have to experience!    I am so sorry that you had to experience it.  Here is a big hug that I wish I could give you.    

I also am sorry to hear about the cellulitis.  I have gone through that and it is indeed painful.  I am glad that it is getting better.  I have given up hope of ever getting an iv without mega bruises as they never can find a vein and it is always a 4 or 5 attempt event with many bruises to heal.  And they do hurt!

It is always hard to see transitions in the work place.  So very hard to see your favorite boss leaving and I am hoping that you will get a boss yous like even better!  My prayers are that my boss retires. She is getting worse every day and now just yells and lectures and belittles  everyone, To add insult she has no clue in what is going on.  We think it is dementia but the upper people do not see it.  Sigh.  

Hugs and prayers to you! 

Thank you for the kind words. Cyber hug back to you also. The hurt is still there because we can see their house/yard from our 3 season room especially when watching TV.

Time will heal all wounds.

Big hugs to you Christine.  I know that being left out can be very painful.  Hopefully, time will do it's job quickly.  And....maybe as Nancy said, it was a silly misunderstanding.