Thursday Roll Call

Hello everyone

So I have no work today.  They called it off due to a transformer fire down the street from our building...leaving 23 businesses out of power.  And I guess with the power outages due to the storm Comed is just too over taxed to get to us.  So no work!!!  Yeah 4 day weekend!!!

My ENT was nice.  I have no permanent damage.  Any hearing loss will be temporary.  I am taking steroids...it's supposed to help the healing a bit.  When he heard how it happened he said all the pretty ones always do it skydiving and scuba diving....hahaha!!! 

I will go to Fox Valley today and hop on over to Bolingbrook to check out the farmer's market and maybe do my Chipotle Friday today.

I will watch a movie today too.  Oh yes I will do things today.  How about you guys?

Dawn if you see Connie tell her I said hi.

Nancy and Sharon...hop on and say hi don't be strangers.

Well I will get back to my nice day off...have a wonderful all.  Bye

Hello Friends,

I have not been well. The shingles have had me in bed for the last 5 days. Today I am feeling like a human being again with lessened pain. I had no idea the pain from shingles got worse as the lesions dried up. I assumed as the lesions dry over so does the pain. I consider myself someone who has a good check on pain issues, but this knoocked me on my dupa. I generally do not take anything for pain, so assumed an advil would work. NOPE! The doc wanted to admit me for pain control but I declined and lived on Tyl 3's. Unfortunaletly, my new employer rescinded the offer of employment since I was not able to start work this past Monday.  I am despondent over it, but pray God has another avenue for me to travel.

G has been a good mate over the past week or so. I have had to ask him for help and he complied. Later when I am better, we are going to have a discussion about his bizarre attitude toward my helplessness. I am a "jump in and ask what do you need kind" of person. He aint. His sister and I talked late yesterday and she said she was prayiig for me. I was shocked he even told her. He is so private. It is a small miracle in the grand scheme of things.

I have to go back and read what has been happening over the past week.

Crystal enjoy the 4 days off, you deserve it after what you have gone through over the past 2 quarters at that job.

Hugs my dear ones,

Sharon

Sharon-  I truly believe everything happens for a reason.  This job wasn't meant for you.  A better one will be waiting for you.  When ever something happened to me that was terrible....something always good came from it.  That is what I always tell myself when I am in the middle of dealing with my pain.  Something good will come of this. 

Happy 4th of July Eve.

Sharon, I am sorry that they recinded the offer, but you will find something better.

Crystal, how nice you get the extra day off. Even if it wasn't planned.

Dawn, you seem as busy as ever.

Nancy, I hope you are doing good.

Chris, what is happening in your world?

We had a great day in Springfield yesterday. The place we went for lunch is a soup salad and sandwich place, they were packed and we still got out of there in under an hour. Plus, there were nice little shops around it. I bought a scarf and a pair of erriings, as well as some popcorn at the popcorn shop.

I got home around 5:30, and Hubert and I had canned chili for supper. He wanted to know why I didn't make fresh, and I just looked at him, and explained that to make chili it would of menth a quick trip to the store, cooking the hamburger and then simmering the chili for at least 30 min. That would of taken at least 1 hour and 1/2, and if he didn't want to eat until 8:30 or 9, the canned worked.  Men!!!

I am rearranging some of the stuff in our living room. Of course that entails that the stuff I am removing has to find a home, it will, tomorrow. I will at least get the stuff away from the front room, so it will look good when the DH gets home. He may or not ask where everything went.

hugs,

Good day everyone,

I can't believe that tomorrow is July 4th. Where did the month of June go?

From last night to this coming Tuesday July 8th I'll be taking care of my aunt's cat and one of her two dog for the 4th of July holiday. Today I made a phone call and signed up for a class at Northwestern Memorial Hospital called "Total Joint Replacement Pre-admission Class" so I can get myself ready (before, during, and after surgery) for my right hip replacement coming up on July 16, 2014. I'm getting nervous. I can't believe it's just 13 days away until I have my surgery.

Good to hear that your hearing/ears are going to be okay and I hope the steroids help you.

Have a great day everyone.

Good afternoon Crystal and the rest of Illinois!

I am home after my last IOP/Continuing Care treatment.  I am now one step closer to being on my own on this journey.  For the last week, I have been crying at the drop of a hat (or word, or thought).  It seems that this is normal.  I am FEELING things that I have been stuffing for years.....some since I was 8 years old.    Most are painful.  I also cry when someone shows the least bit of care, love or concern.  This has been explained that is because I am not used to having people truly CARE for me.  I can believe that.  It is an odd feeling, and I don't seem to know how to handle it appropriately.

After our family session last week, my counselor wanted to know what I thought of the session.  I told her that it didn't seem to affect Todd, and, although he is willing to try a couple very small things to be helpful, he really does not "get it".  She stated that (she sees that) he is either unwilling or unable to communicate and relate to what I am going through.  She asked if maybe he was having an "off" day.  I stated that he was actually more cooperative with her than he usually is with me.  This made her sad.  She said that the impact of the session stayed with her all that night and since.  She says that he had to be the MOST uncommunicative person she has ever seen in a session.  He was not disrespectful or anything, just did not talk.  I said, "welcome to my life....."  So, my Facebook status reflects this news.  I AM going to ask him to also seek counseling (either with me or on his own).  Since he does not really believe in counseling, I think I will be battling every step of the way without him. 

On a happier note:  with this knowledge, I am reaching out to more of the women in my meetings and hope to have a sponsor soon.  These women have promised to love me until I am able to love myself and that sounds like a start.

So......I am plugging along and looking very forward to my 5 nights at the beach on my own.  I will seek meetings while there and possibly look into the housing situation in the general area as a "plan B".

So.....off to visit with my primary care doc.  Then home for a bit and I might check out some new meetings this evening.  Unfortunately, I did not get a chance to stop by and see Connie and Kay. 

Everyone have a spectacular evening and Happy 4th!

Dear Dawn,

You and I are in a lot of the same situations right now. I am so proud of you. I feel your pain. I too, am dealing with very painful childhood memories that I have stuffed big time. This dealing with the hoarding and outrageous addictive spending sprees  were ways to ignore the deep pain from a young age and keep moving. It is quite amazing what occurs when you stop the addiction and begin to deal what has fed the beast for so long. My dear one, you are in the race of your life and you are way ahead of all the other runners. Keep at it. I wish I could see Connie and Kay. I feel like they would be a soft place to fall.

I am sorry about Todd, but that will also work. It is going to take some time, but God an heal anything. His pain is obvious. I pray he can get to the root of what it is. We all know his father is a real arse. G is going to also deal with some things. And I know he will.

Blessings and big hugs,

Sharon