Monday Roll Call

Hello everyone

I was MIA this weekend because....well I broke up with Chris.  It was the hardest thing I ever did.  Especially since I am having so much stress at work and he was such a source of comfort to me when it came to that.  But the truth of the matter is he was backing down on the "moving in" arrangement we planned in August.  Now he knew when he entered into this relationship I was looking for something serious.  Something that was going to be progressively moving forward to an inevitable end.  Again...he knew this.  But I had this feeling he wasn't really wanting to go through with it....I tired talking to him but he always denied it. Friday it finally came out.  And after two days of thinking I made the choice to split up.  I just don't want to waste anymore time with someone that sees being with me as wasting time.  I want to be more than someone's girlfriend.  And he wasn't willing to give that to me and I'm not going to force him into it.  

So that is my whole pathetic story.  I am sad.  I am really sad.  And part of me wants to jump into his arms and tell him I made a big mistake.  But I would be settling for less.  And the idea of going out there and trying to start over with someone new makes me ill.  

Now I have to go into work today and be abused.  Ugh.  I hate work and I'm not in the mood for this today.  I am really hoping for a good day today.  I just don't need this right now.  Especially since I don't have that person to come home to and comfort me.  

So right now I feel like my life really really sucks.  

I'm sorry I'm being such a downer on roll call.  

Have a good day 

Good Evening,

Crystal. I am so sorry for your breakup. But, you are correct, you wanted more, and he wasn't ready to give it. You don't settle for anything less then you want!

I worked another site today. The only good thing is that I was able to go in a few minutes later, and leave there early to get home at the reg. time. 

Now, I am having an issue with Turbo tax. It won't let me transmit my taxes. It keeps telling me that i am not on the internet! I am sure this to will work itself out. 

I am going to have some supper and relax. 

Hugs,