Tuesday Roll Call
I am still in shock after what happened yesterday. I can't believe I am jobless in this economy. I can't believe I had a job where they loved me and gave it up for this job and they dumped me without a second thought....and it was done very callously. I am still in shock. At first I wanted to pig-out and eat. I guess the way an alcoholic turns to booze. But stress always takes my appetite away...and with my band it really takes my appetite away. I came home and the thought of dinner turned my stomach...so I didn't eat. Honestly I don't feel like eating now either but I haven't eaten since 12pm yesterday so I know I need some food. I had to take Tylenol PM last night to sleep too...and now I feel groggy. I feel depressed. I don't feel like doing anything. I just want to crawl in bed and pull my blanket over my head and never come out. Everyone keeps saying things happen for a reason. And I do believe that...I didn't like it there. Maybe I will find a place I like? Whatever for all I know he still reads these entries...
I am scared...what am going to do? How am going to pay my bills? Am I going to end up homeless? Maybe moving here was a mistake. I just wanted to be closer to Amanda, before she left. Now look at the mess I'm in. I am sooo screwed!!!
Well I better get going. See ya.
Good Morning,
Crystal, I am so sorry this happened to you. What reason did they give you? Are they saying they were firing you? And will you be able to get Unemployment? If you gey unemployment, that will be a lifeline for you. I am sure as soon as the shock wears off, you will be right back out there fighting for a great job.
No problems today, just work and going to Morgans choral concert this evening. Wed. will be my last work day until May 1. I am so looking forward to this cruise.
Hugs,
LISA
Morning Everyone
Crystal, 
Take a deep breath. Your reactions are normal. From experience, I was reeling the first several days. Being single, this seems overwhelming, I know. But, I am sure you have some savings. File for unemployment as soon as possible. You can do that on line. Every little bit helps. Take some time to look at your bills and sort the needs from the wants. You will be amazed at how much are wants. Talk to you landlord about rent. You may be able to work something out there. Try some temp agencies. You have some amazing skills that are in high demand. This might be a time to take temp work to find a company you really like. Sometimes they hire a temp on a long term basis.
You found this job, you WILL find another. You are in a large metropolitan area. I know it is not the Chicago suburbs but there are plenty of companys that need accountants.
Most of all, dont panic! Take your time. It WILL work out. I spent a year on unemployment and it was the best vacation I had. 
I survived, and paid my bills. My spending habits changed and I found out I could live without a lot of things. A lot is your perception.
It is hard to realize all of this right now. I thought my world was ending the first time it happened. But it did not. The first time, I had a job within a month.
Hang in there. You are in my thoughts. I wondered if you got sleep last night. I kept thinking about you and thought about you when I woke this morning. We care.
Cat Lady
{{{{{{{{{BIG, BIG HUGS}}}}}}}}}
Nancy said everything I could possibly say so all I can do is offer hugs and support. That really stinks.
The excitement in this house centers on David.....again. I am not sure that he is ready to be a contributing member of society and tough love is all I can think of. It is scary, but I can't help him if he won't help himself. He continues to show up late to work and was given a total of 35 hours off out of the last 80 to "think about it". He has not done much to look for a new vehicle or get the old one fixed....and we had another of his famous "scenes" Sunday night. I DID wind up letting him use my car today as it may be the ONLY way he can save his job. BUT........I can't keep it up if he won't help himself. Needless to say, I didn't get much sleep last night either. I think that he may be bi-polar but now that he is over 18, there is nothing I can do to make him seek treatment.
I need to try to get some work done and keep my mind off of it. Maybe a nap later too.
Other than that, I am trying a recipe for carnitas (Mexican pulled pork) in the crock pot for dinner and Liv's new show opens on Friday!
Everyone have a lovely day!
Tell someone that you love them!
Dawn
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Crystal I'm sorry to hear about your job loss and will lift you in prayer that God finds what is right for you this time.
My day at work should be interesting I have another "meeting" with the woman who hates me and wants me gone and my boss. This time however, I believe the boss has seen her true colors hopefully and realizes the animosity is from her not me. If she doesn't she's blind and I'll just shut up and keep working to the best of my ability.
Today is the one day I have no testing this week so I need to get a lot of work caught up and work ahead a bit.
Everyone have a great day.
Heidi
When will you have your final day @ work? Are they giving you a severance package? Have you been there long enough to collect unemployment?
I can understand your issues with not wanting to eat. Try to eat what you can to stay nourished.
Nancy gave you some great input and I hope you can gleen something from it when you get can sit down and start making your plans.
We are here to support you. Keep coming to us.
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I put my hummer feeder up on Sunday. I have not had much success in past years - mostly because I get bored with it more than likely because of all the other chores in the yard and house. Behind the 3 season room has little sun so the feeder does not get yucky fermenting in the sun. This year I have really cut back on planters for annuals and have replaced them with perennials and I am not buying as much veggie plants. I did buy spaghetti squash seeds and for one of my square foot boxes and they will share the space (limited) with pumpkin seeds. The rest of the boxes are devoted to tomatoes (4), sweet peppers (2), hot peppers (3), onions, peas (already up 1+") and basil (2). I have annuals coming from the local garden club and just need to get some red salvia to attract the hummers.
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