Saturday Roll Call

Hello everyone

I'm up wayyyy to early for a Saturday!!!  

Turns out I do have plans today.  I have plans with Amanda.  I am picking her up and we're running errands together.  Then we are going to Goodwill.  Then we are going out for lunch.  Then we are going to my house and while she's doing laundry we are going to do some crafts.

Big news...I finally registered for a 5K!!!  It was Amanda's idea and she found the 5K in the next town over.  It's in March so it's just the incentive I need to get my butt in gear!!!

Again...a week of beautiful weather and I was stuck inside unable to enjoy it.  The weekend is here and it's RAINING!!!!  Ugh!!!!

Well what's your day like???

Have a good day...bye   

Morning, I managed to stay between the sheets for longer than I usually do. I was not asleep but at least I was relaxing my body. We will see how the ole bones feel later on this morning.

We have a trip planned to Costco and Whole Foods near Woodfield and that is about it.

 so long for now. Need to sip on my java.

I was up at 5:15 but just now got awake enough to have a hope that I might be the one to open roll call today.

My sleep behavior psychologist gave me a set of things to do  whi*****luded buying a $200 lamp not covered by insurance and not having any bright light in the evenings.  The first is 10,000 lux and I started out sitting in front of it for two hours in the morning early in December when I got up on my normal schedule.  That schedule is the one that keeps me circleing around the clock and is called N24 but with sleep meds is currently Dxd as ISWP.  So this gives my body a signal to go to bed in 16 hours or so.  I have slowly pulled the time back to 5:15 which will allow me to clean up and get dressed before taking Sherry to the train and so if not for a few other issues my morning bp meds cause I could go to work somewhere if this pattern holds.  I began volunteering a lot more  as my own occupational and physical rehabilitation therapy.  Next my business picked up to the point I was busy at home in the early morning making up maps and invoices and then the rest of the day on service calls.  I think some of my competitors are snow birds so this sometimes happens when the weather turns cold.  Not something one can depend on though.  This went on dor about three weeks and then Tuesday about 9am I hit the wall.  The giant guerilla jumped on my back.  I was pretty sure I was headed for an out of body experiance.  It happened as I was driving to the new Mariano's in Palatine.  I like the store but not the way one leaves the parking lot.  I am not sure a exit to the South on Hicks is possible and I know it is not from the south exit on Hicks or the side street on the south side.  That side street also has you going through a neighborhood to get to 14.  I got to feeling like I would not be seeing the light and walked around a bit in the store but still felt week and so left without buying anything and that night after spending the day resting went to the Arlington Heights store for our weekly grilled seafood fix.  I still alway buy too much and had the third talapia fillet yesterday.

This brings me to two things or three, maybe more.

One is when is the next Kane Center support meeting and maybe I should go there with a lot of this and maybe on to at least a few psych sessions,  I am having trouble being civil and friendly with folks who want to eat at buffets or order pizza for everything as well as my replacements for food on a mental level.  This includes Cheryl who wanted to go to Port Edwards for her birthday last month.  I might have done it but we got that six inches of snow that day and so I waited for a delivery as the first few inches fell then went out to a service call which I finished in time to get to Mariano's and bought her a soup she likes and more coctail crab claws and snow crab legs and claws than she could finish that night.  Still when the weather cleared she started talking about Port Edwards again and I was hurt, wounded, confused.

A similar sitiation is going on with our monthly table group as last month when the leader asked for what we might bring we said brisket soup and everyone else said a dessert dish so we pulled out and let them know those choice would never do for us and again I was very hurt and confused because these folks have seen me go into lithurgy sue to dumping when I ate a dumpling I thought was chicken.  So the group is about the fellowship and not the food but I feel like I cannot have fellowship in the middle of foods I know will kill me and them. 

Randy, thank you for opening up to us. That is the only way we know what is on your mind. We all have problems with this after a while. Maybe going back to support group will help you. A few phych visits may help too.

We go out to eat alot, and we go both to buffets and table service places. Alot of times, I order a bowl of soup and share abit of salad with Hubert. Last night I ate, from  a salad bar, then had shrimp, carrots and a bit of mashed potatoes.  I had no problems. You just have to make up your mind not to worry about the cost, and just enjoy yourself.

LISA

Hi Randy, good to "see" you. I was thinking about you the other day when I remembered that you had a service call up in the area of Dawn near the Cheddar Curtain.

I cannot imagine having sleep issues as you have. I can remember you writing about them in the past. I guess my occasional times of insomnia dull in comparison to you.

We have not been to the new Mariano's in Palatine but will get up there eventually. We love their store in Arlington. I sure hope they give Jewel and Dominick's a run for the money and Mariano's is by far a nicer store. Great seafood, meats and produce to name a few. A little pricey at times but well worth it for the quality of food and selection that you get.

Sorry that the table group caused you hurt. They evidentally have not been listening to you and Cheryl all along. Keep in mind your scripture verse in your signature - because you can do this and all things . . . lean on Him as I know that you do. 

Chris

We have not been to Port Edward's in years! I have driving past it about a dozen times since last fall when I was car jockeying squads to Crystal Lake. 

PS - I think going to the Kane support group would be a great idea!

Randy

Food is closely connected to fellowship/get-togethers.  Look at Thanksgiving and Birthdays and even the Super Bowl...they center around food.  Our society has put food in the middle of these things.  People...myself included will always invlolve food (and it's always comfort food not healthy food) when we meet with and or party with friends/family/co-workers.  I feel that the way others eat is their business.  I am focused on my own healthy eating.  I can't expect everyone to bend to my "new lifestyle".  Just like someone couldn't expect you to eat healthy do the same 5-10 years ago.  I have learned to either not eat what's being served or limit myself to a small serving.  Once a month I will go hog wild and eat what I want.  Last week I had a big piece of cake.  Make sure you allow yourself a cheat once a while (if you can without dumping). 

It sounds to me like you are struggling and you are resentful of others for putting temptation in arms length...I can understand that feeling.  Just try to remember that this is your lifestyle not theirs.  They can eat a dumpling and not get sick.  Just like my friends can eat cookies and say no after 2...where I will eat the package and feel like a loser afterward.  But I can't get mad at them for bringing cookies around me.

I hope you find some peace...I'm glad you going to the Kane Center.   

A big piece of cake????  I cannot even imagine.  I guess that is a differance between a bander and a GBS.  After having passed this much time with my surgery past I have made enough mistakes with disguised carbs that made me sick that I feel like I can get mad and have a right to be mad because this is not my lifestyle this is my life and my health that anyone who is my friend is supposed to care about enough to take care not to put me in danger.

Beyond that folks just bringing desserts to a dinner has other things wrong with it and speaks to folks not digging into the meat of life.

Everyone, I have to kindly comment that Randy and Cheryl have known this small group of people (@ their table group) for a while and all of them should have known that they need a certain type of food or foods otherwise they would have not have suggested the brisket soup (which by the way I would love to know how you make it!). The group could have bended and let them bring it and filled in with other foods to go with it  . . . so they could have something to eat and participate with the group. I have met the table group, they are a wonderful group of people but they could have bended for Randy.

I agree with you all that you cannot always control what is being served at a function or when going out to eat but this is with people that they meet with on a regular basis.

Randy and Cheryl are so trying to make their healthy eating as a part of their lifestyle now and for the future. They do no want to change people they just want to live and be a part of other's lives.

Randy

You are doing fantastic on your sleep issues!  Congratulations!  You have come a long way with this.  I am so happy for you.  I hope this success stays with you.  

As for the eating issues, I have a feeling it will be a life time struggle.  It is something I had to come to terms with early out.  I stayed with my sister after my surgery and she fed regular meals to the family and boy did they smell great!  I knew I could not have it but it did not stop me from wanting it.  The same thing is true at the cafeteria at work where I have to watch people eat anything.  I have come to the conclusion that those who have never had a weight problem have no clue to how difficult it is for others and those who do have a problem and do nothing about it are in denial.  

Even today, my family does not cook specal meals for me when we get together.  They fix what they want and I take what I am able to eat and leave the rest.  Yes I have had pizza and cake.  I do not dump.  No it is not everyday as like others, I have a hard time stopping.  I realize my diet needs are not the same as others.  I do not like going to clubs where there will be fancy desserts with everyone pigging out but that does not stop me from going.  I just remember how overly sweet these are to the point of being sickening and I am fine.  Like others said, our socializing centers around food and I dont think we can change that.  I am the one who has to learn to adapt and not expect others to do the adapting.  Many people look at social gatherings as the one time that they can pig out.  So I let them but do not judge them.  That is their choice, I made mine when I chose to have my surgery.  

It might help to go to some counseling sessions to help you come up with some coping skills for these situations.  Good luck.  

Keep us posted.  We care and want to help.  

Good  Morning,

Me thinks we are all up way to early. I was up at 5:15, needing to go to the little girls room. Then, I tried to go back to sleep, but couldn't.

It looks like we had some rain, but it isn't now. The weatherman on 2 last night said Saturday will be the worst day of the weekend.

My only plans for today is to work on taxes and then go over to the mall in Peru. My youngest, Annette is looking for a stove, so Sears here we come.

My hip and knee are still bothering me. I may have to make an appointment for a corisone (?)  shot soon. Its been 8 months since my last one. I am hoping I can put it off for another month.

My coffee is going down real easy this morning. I may have to procrastinate abit longer, and drink another cup.

Have a great day,
HUGS,
LISA