Just Little Ol' Me

Hi there everyone,  I have decided that I really need to get back to this board and the support of all my wonderful friends.  Life has been crazy for a while now and it's showing in more ways than one!

I finished my Medical Assistant Program and now a graduate.  Of course I am still going to school at Waubonsee Community College for my RN degree now.  However, I have been trying to find a job and it's not easy.  I have had several interviews that all seemed very promising and then I never hear back from them.  I just don't understand it.  I had another one today at Dryer Medical Group for the Family Practice/Rhumetology office and will be going back on Monday to shadow for the day.  It also sounds very promising but I don't want to get my hopes up.  oh well.  Kids started school yesterday and now I have 2 in high school and 1 in middle school.  Tyler drives himself and Jacob in the mornings and boy does that help things.  lol  

My marriage is....well honestly I'm not sure.  It's not horrible but it definately could be better, but it seems like I am the only one who thinks so.  There are just so many things that I won't even get into it here.  I just know that everything going on around here is affecting my eating habits and I am completely ashamed and embarassed to admit that I have gained 30 pounds from my lowest weight. 
I really need to do something  about it and have been watching my protein intake again and eating more fruits and veggies.  Unfortunately I've discovered that I don't dump on sugar and that is NOT good for me.  I am trying to tell myself that I do and while it helps sometimes, it's not easy at all.  I really need to exercise more as well.  I just need support and figured this will be the best place to get it!

Hope everyone is doing well and I plan on checking in daily again!!
Love ya all!

Hello

I see you all of the time on Facebook, but it's nice to see you here. 

I know how easy it is to be ashamed.  Sometimes I get down on myself for not losing enough weight or losing it fast enough (it happens to all of us).  Just keep your chin up and your eye on the nutrtional lables....hahahaha 

I know you and your husband are not always doing well.  I have said before that when I was married I was soooo absolutely miserable and I didn't even realize how miserable I was.  I think that's why I am so happy now, because I know how bad it was.  You are working toward a goal that will eventually allow you to leave if you so choose to.  I always tell people after spending 10 years in misery that life is too short to be miserable and I will never get those 10 years back.  You will be a great RN and you will be able to be in control of your life. 

I hope to see you here every day. 

thanks Crystal for the kind words.  My plan is to check in here every day before I even open FB...lol

I know that once I get a job and seem to "have a purpose" again, things will start to look up and I'll be able to get totally back on track. 

You have been missed even though I see you on FB - it is not the same as the family we have here.

I hardly dump on sugar either but when I do I am very uncomfortable. We are here for support and you cannot get this kind of support on FB because we have a different mindset.

I got my butt back out to exercise even though it is a little hot still and you know what it feels so good. I encourage you to do the same when you can fit it into your schedule. Everyone needs some of that alone time to reflect and recharge.

thanks Chris, you are so right in that FB is just not the same as the family I have here.  Everyone here pretty much knows what's going on and how hard this really is.  Like I said to Crystal, I plan on checking in again here every day.

I need to start taking the dogs for walks in the evenings, it's just that the mosquito's here are like mutant and even bug spray doesn't stop them. Even with spraying ourselves I got 5 bites just being in the backyard for like 5 minutes.

Monica, Your OH family is always here for you. So, you gained 30 lbs, you will lose it again. Just remember what it was like before.
You know whatever you decide to do about your marriage, we will back you 100 %.

Hugs,
LISA

Thank you Lisa.  I know that my OH family is with me for life now and for that I am truly thankful!

Hi Monica,

I sure can understand the issues with regain, as I regained more than that. I think my highest weight regain was 120 pounds. I can't believe I let myself gain so much after the hard work I did to get down.

I started exercising again and joined a fitness center. So I have the best of both worlds, a trainer and a wonderful elliptical. I can do 45 minutes straight on the elliptical now. YAY!!

I've lost weight since March, close to 50 pounds. I looked into revision surgery and decided to have the DS. It really fits my lifestyle and I should have had the DS to start with.

Dr. Guske is willing to care for me after my surgery. So I am pleased about that.

I am so ashamed of my regain that I pulled away from my friends here and home.

My surgery is Wednesday in San Francisco and I am leaving here on Sunday. I will have my laptop and will be able to check in.

I really don't have any words of wisdom about your marriage. Only you know what you can deal with or want to deal with. I will send my prayers your way.

Hugs,
Lucy

Yeah....what they all said!

I need to buckle down and lose the 10 I have gained and the other 30 that I never lost.  We CAN do this.

Coming here will help and you know that we love you and will support you through it all!