Shame
Yesterday I saw Dr. Guske and lost 9 pounds in the past month. Originally I was going to cancel my appointment because I was so sure that I didn't lose anything. I haven't been that great with my eating. While waiting to see him, I read an article in WLS Lifestyles called "The five letter word that could be undermining your weight loss efforts, SHAME. It sure hit home for me. I was isolating myself from the very things that could help me get back on track, people and support meetings.
I have seen Dr. Crane to help me get through this period in my life. You see a lot of what happened to me in the past year had to do with my experiences with men and dating. I experienced a lot of painful experiences and went back to my comfort, meaning food - trying to rebuild the fat shell around my body - keeping me safe from that hurt.
Maybe you're surprised that I am expressing my deepest thoughts here but I think writing it and seeing it, will get me through this problem.
I have decided not to pursue any relationships, unless it just would happen. It hurts too much.
I am concentrating on me - the Lucy that you all know. She is powerful and strong. Hey, that is ME!!
I have been in Vegas for a couple of days; in 3 weeks I'll be cruising with Pam S.
I want to thank those of you who PM'd me, asking how I am doing, as well as those who asked about me on the board.
Monica, I am saddened by the loss of your pet. I had a dog and had to put her to sleep. It was the hardest thing I had to do.
I plan on attending my support meeting this Saturday.
Hugs,
Lucy
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Pre-op/RNY day/pre DS day/current/goal- Realize Band 5/15/08; RNY 6/8/05, Removal Band and RNY to DS 8/25/10. RNY & Band surgeon was Dr. Guske.
Glad to here you are going to the support meeting Sat. we all need to have a support program.
Take care
Success begins with wise choices I make,I will not let noncompliance be my mistake, The surgery I had was to assist me in changes. My compliance is for a success long range, So I will think before I decide to cheat. Remember the goals I want to meet. For this surgery is not something I was force to do It was what I wanted for a healthy life!
I've missed my support group so much, but felt that I let them down.
I just finished my solid breakfast, a rice cake with two slices of low fat Lorraine cheese with 2 slices of pickles. I feel stuffed. I am trying to chew and eat my food more slowly. It works!
Hugs,
Lucy
484.8/383.4/241/188/150
Pre-op/RNY day/pre DS day/current/goal- Realize Band 5/15/08; RNY 6/8/05, Removal Band and RNY to DS 8/25/10. RNY & Band surgeon was Dr. Guske.
Be well.
Nicolle
I had the kick-butt duodenal switch (DS)!
HW: 344 lbs CW: 150 lbs
Type 2 diabetes and sleep apnea GONE!
Hugs,
Lucy
484.8/383.4/241/188/150
Pre-op/RNY day/pre DS day/current/goal- Realize Band 5/15/08; RNY 6/8/05, Removal Band and RNY to DS 8/25/10. RNY & Band surgeon was Dr. Guske.
Please don't do this to your OH family again. We all miss you when you don't come in and play with us. A 9 lb lost is great. He only wants us to lose 6 lb a month. You never want to cancel an appointment, you need his support. ( and ours).And of course, you need to love Dr. Crane too.
Anyway, I am so glad you are back with us.And I know you will have a blast with Pam on your cruise. We will be going on one next summer.
Hugs,
I can't believe my cruise with Pam is coming up so soon.
Thanks,
Lucy
484.8/383.4/241/188/150
Pre-op/RNY day/pre DS day/current/goal- Realize Band 5/15/08; RNY 6/8/05, Removal Band and RNY to DS 8/25/10. RNY & Band surgeon was Dr. Guske.
You have been missed so very much! I guess you know that by now! Congrats on your 9 pound loss! WOW thats a super #.
Love is a strange thing, its something you can not go out and look for it has to find you. Since you are a out going person and a beautiful one too, it will find you!
Have fun on that Cruise wish I was going! I love going on cruises been on one, and had a wonderful time and exprience!
Have fun in Vegas!
Karen
Cruising with Pam and friends will be a blast. Just something I need right now.
Thanks
Lucy
484.8/383.4/241/188/150
Pre-op/RNY day/pre DS day/current/goal- Realize Band 5/15/08; RNY 6/8/05, Removal Band and RNY to DS 8/25/10. RNY & Band surgeon was Dr. Guske.
