Finally home from ABMC/Dr R

Wow, what a day I have had.  Went to my appt this morning, turns out I have a stoma, no biggie.  He lanced it, packed it a little, told me not to take the meds, it's not infected and to go see Karyn in 1 1/2 week.  I lost another 2 pounds since May 6th!  woohoo

THEN....I ask him about that lump they found on the CT scan in the ER way back when.  He tells me that as long as I am there, why don't they try to call down to mammo and get me in.  okay fine....so they do.  well they must have taken at least 15 pictures of my boobs, making me wait and sit in between each set, then then send me for an ultrasound....
YES there is definately a mass there and I have to have a biopsy done of it in the next couple of weeks to make sure it's not cancer!  Isn't this great news??  (said sarcastically of course)

I am a nervous wreck and honestly keep wondering what I did to deserve all of this.....

Monica-I am so sorry you are going through such trauma-I will double up on my prayers for you. Many times these turn out to be just a scare, so we'll keep positive vibes going your way-Big Hugs-Janet K

Thank you Janet.  I need all the prayers I can get at this point.

I am also dealing with an ungrateful 14 yr old now too.  He's upset because I cannot afford the paintball party that I told him he could have.  I didn't anticipate being out of work and having all these complications.  but he's a teenager and they tend to think only of themselves at times I guess.  oh well

Hi Monica, Sorry to hear you are have a rough time. You are in my thoughts and prayers as well. take care, Paula

Monica, My prayers are with you.  Something like 90% of lumps found are just fatty tissue so don't freak!  You are rebuilding and reshaping your entire physical being.  I wish that it was not so trying for you, but on the other side of all this is a beautiful, healthy and happy woman who is going to live a long and healthy life!  Hang in there.  As for your son, he is probably scared with all that is going on, and exhibiting that fear through what seems like selfish wants.  He'll come around quickly.  Last year I bought my 16 year old brother-in-law a soft pellet BB gun.  It shoots a soft rubber BB that is basically safe to use.  It only cost about $20, and he loved it.  This might be a fun substitute for paintball.  Just an idea.  You might also look into laser tag as an alternative.  I did that about 7 years ago and it was a lot of fun.  I'm guessing it would be much cheaper than a paintball party.  Good luck with all this.  You are a strong and powerful woman who will survive all this.  That's why God made you!  Paul

Paul, what can I say?  You should be an inspirational speaker.  You said all of that so well and it really made me feel better. 

thank you so much!!  You are a true friend, that I will meet someday in person!  lol

Monica, you will laugh when this year is over. 

Lisa....I laughed when I read this and said, "oh I hope so" LOL

I can't wait for Thanksgiving...I have a lot to be thankful for this year....#1....having you all here in my life.  You all have been so wonderful and I wouldn't be where I am now if it weren't for my OH IL family!

Oh Honey!!!! I am thinking of you everyday and hoping that this "bump" will also be navigated easily.  I am so sorry that you are going through all of this. I am praying for you and keeping you in my thoughts. Luv ya, Dawn

Thank you Dawn.  I guess when it rains it pours here lately, but ya know what?  I will be okay no matter what!  I have never been a religious person other than believing, but I have decided it's time for me to put this into the Lord's hands.  I am going to find a church near here that I am comfortable at and start going.  Even if I have to go alone.

I just can't handle everything on my  own anymore ya know?

Love ya too!