Back from the doctors office

Hi everyone. I'm back from seeing Dr. Guske. Wouldn't you know it that he would be running an hour late! I asked the nurse to weigh me ahead of time as I couldn't take the wait anymore. Then I went out and got a cup of coffee and came back to the office. Finally he came in and I had to muster every bit of energy to hold back the tears. He was very understanding and felt that I didn't do any damage to my pouch. He wants me to see a nutritionist. Only 3 meals a day and 1 snack - fruit. Back to exercising regularly and no drinking with meals. I asked him for an antidepressant, but he wants me to see my regular attending physician for that. He is not familiar with the different types and what would be good and safe for me, as they have a lot of side effects. He agreed that I need to be put on one and offered to have his nurse contact my PCP's office to get an appointment soon. I will be calling my doc's office tomorrow morning for an appointment the same day - Friday. When Dr. Guske told me that he wouldn't prescribe an antidepressant, I broke down and cried. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I told him everything that has been going on for the past months and he was sympathetic.  I am going to see my attending doc and get the meds I need. Then I will make an appointment to see the nutritionist. Oh, what a Christmas week it is going to be.... I am crying as I am writing this. I can't help it. I feel so bad. I'm sure glad the weekend is coming! Willow is coming over soon and I'm so glad to have the company. Thanks for listening. I know that my problems are not as bad as what others are going through. It is just me! Lucy

Oh Lucy, Hang in there lady, it will get better.  And like I said, he didn't yell at you at all did he. You will get what you need to move forward and do what's best for you.  I'm glad you will get into your PCP soon and hopefully the happy pills will help.  I know they worked for me when I needed them. Glad you will have company tonight, that should help. I'm looking forward to Saturday...we are going to have a lot of fun.  I asked one of my friends to join us so there will be 4 of us "crawling". LOL Hang tight and know that I'm thinking of you!

Hi Ronna. Thanks for your message. I am feeling a bit better tonight since Willow was here. We had a good visit and chat. She is such a dear and caring friend. I should be getting some meds tomorrow.  Thanks again! Lucy

Lucy,  I really understand what you are going through.Just hang on and take one day at a time, One hour even. This is a bad time of year for a lot of people and you are correct, others have it worst.  I am here for you. Hugs Lisa

Good morning Lisa. Thanks for this message. I am going to take it slow. I have my goal for today and that is to have 3 meals and 1 snack, and of course, see my doc. I have to call the nutritionist for an appointment. I feel better this morning. Thanks for being here for me! Hugs, Lucy

Lucy,  There is no need to apologize for the way you are feeling, we are all here to support each other through the good, the bad, and the totally ugly parts of life.   I have battled depression since my mid twenties, and I can tell you there are times now that all I want to do is crawl under the blankets and hide.  Yes, I am on two different anti-depressants and they do help.  So, go see your PCP, and get what you need.  Just so you know, you may have to go through several different ones before you find one that works on you.  This latest round for me took about 6 months to figure out the right dosage and combination.  One of the best on the market right now is Wellbutrin. hugs to you my dear.....if you need someone to talk to, let me know.

Oh my dear friend Miss Lucy.......I am so sorry that you are going thru this.......I wish I was there to give you a hug....I never ever had depression in my life until I hit 45, and then it hit me good.......never took anything for it but I wanted to.   When you live alone it is hard sometimes, but I do know this, that everyone here on this board just adore you, You are very important to us all here!    Hugs

Good morning Pam. I'm having a problem with posting replies. Reported it to OH. I tried to respond to Wendi and it comes to your post. Ugh!! I wish you were here too to give me a hug. Living alone has it's ups and downs. Thank you for your kind words. This morning I started taking control of my life again, one day at a time. I will see my PCP sometime today and get some medication. Tomorrow Ronna and I will be going to Arlington Heights for an evening gathering called the Christmas Crawl. It should be fun, weather permitting. I'll post after my doc's appointment. Thank you for being a dear friend! Hugs, Lucy

Good morning Wendi. Thank you for your message. I am taking control of my life again and will turn it around. One day at a time. It begins with the proper nutrition. I am happy to say that I am on a good start. I will be even more happier once I see my PCP today. It's true; all I wanted to do was to hide under the covers and sleep. I'll keep you posted after my doc's visit today. Even though we haven't met yet, I want to say thank you for being a good friend. Hugs, Lucy