Feeling really bad today

I'm feeling really bad today, both physically (health related issues) and mentally.  I called off work.  I suppose that doesn't really make it better.  Now I feel guilty.  I have been cleared by my surgeon for surgery, but I'm waiting for his secretary to fax my file to BCBS.  This should have been done last Thursday, but she didn't get around to it and now she promises that it will be done by tomorrow. 

I'm so upset.  Tired of being sick.  Tired of waiting.  Tired of struggling.  I'm so close yet I can't see to get motivated today.  I just want to put my robe on and watch food network today.  The actual thought of eating doesn't even make me happy any more, which is a good thing.  Maybe I should go to sleep and try to wake up on the right side of the bed.  Did you ever feel like you needed to rewind  your life about 30 years.  Hmmm. I pray to Jesus for direction.  I know that He loves me.  But I feel lost today.  Maybe I'll feel better after I get up and get moving.  I'm going to go to GNC to see if I can buy some post op protein.  I feel like I'm in limbo.  I can't wait until I have my surgery date.  Thanks for listening.   Janet

 

Dear Janet: I am so sorry to see that you are having a bad day, I hope it gets better soon! Hopefully, the movement has helped by now.

I don't have a lot of good advice, just wanted you not to feel so all alone!

oh Janet, here's a big (((((((((((Hug)))))))))) for you! I'm sorry that you are feeling poopy today.  I hope that by now you are feeling somewhat better.  We're hear to listen if  you want to vent/talk!

Janet, I hope your day of playing hookey helped. All of us have our down days. I do hope that the food network had a lot of good shows on it for you. If going to GNC didn't help, then do something else. Take a walk, or call a friend, eat something sinful ( chocolate of course), do something for yourself.  Hope you feel better.

(((hugs))) your not alone. I often feel lost anymore. Keep on praying sometimes thats the ONLY thing keeping me going. I will say a prayer for you also. Keep your head held high things will get better soon.

Janet, I am sending you a big old hug.  Ever need to talk, please PM me. Dee