SURGERY NEXT TUESDAY NEED INPUT!!

This is an excerpt from an email i wrote to a new friend...i wanted to share this and see if anyone can understand how Im feeling and if they felt that way at all.....thanks!! I have been up all night! So that will tell you how excited I am about this surgery. This surgery is, for me, a fantasy come true!!!!!!!!!...i mean the start of my BIGGEST DREAM AND FANTASY that I have always wanted since i was a child. To be thin!! And as sick as I have become health wise during the past several years, I cant wait to feel healthy again and lose a lot of my health problems. For me, it just seems too good to be true! That thought makes me nervous. I cant even imagine something so wonderful happening to me...it has been my biggest wish for all of my life!! I am 40, so thats a long time! Can you relate to what i am saying? I just never had a dream come true like this before and so i cant believe it could really happen to me, and i dont want to make it not happen somehow by my negative thoughts. And I guess I feel like I am not deserving of my biggest dream come true! I hope someone out there can relate, i know I sound weird, and i am feeling weird the closer I get to Tuesday!! Thanks so so much for reading and Im looking forward to some input....or even advice. Or how bout a psychic out there to tell em all will be well??

Good luck Alicia. On Tuesday I'll be at work in Boise, but I'll be thinking about you and saying prayers for you. The beginning of a whole new life is always exciting and it sounds like you've been wanting this dream to come true for a long time. Me too, I just never started thinking about the surgery way until lately. I wish I had done it earlier when I was younger. You'll have so much of your life to look forward to and enjoy. Yippee!! You ARE deserving of all the happiness in the world. Hang in there Alicia and remember to say .. I Can do it! I want it and I deserve it. So I WILL do it. Sending you warm hugzzzz Dianna