my cruise is off!!!!

Hi everyone!!! The last time i posted i was going to get to go on a cruise. Well my parents cancelled the cruise because we have court two days before we were suppose to leave. My parents are still trying to get custody of my sisters kids. We finally got to talk to them on Jan 9th. a month after the state took them. I have been fighting my depression majorly. I have also been very sick i am still losing weight. ALL my jeans are to big. I wander are doctors ever happy. What i mean is i remember always hearing them say you need to lose weight so ok i had this surgery to lose weight and i have done pretty darn on good i think. I am lost so far 187 lbs as of last month. Now they are telling me to eat more and gain weight. I am going to weigh in tomorrow since last week i was sick in bed with the flu. I will let you all know what the doctor says. Does anyone still hate weighing in. I still dread it even after 2 years. I still take my shoes off and i am careful on what i wear when i weigh in. I have a fear that i am going to start gaining and the doctor is going to be mad. Weird since all my weigh ins i have lost or stayed the same. Well i better get to studying talk to you all soon!!!!!!! lynda

I'll cry with you. What a bummer. It sounded like so much fun for you. I sure hope your parents get custody, that can be a very trying and stressful time. Would it be temporary custody or permanent? Not that it matters or is any of my business. Just curious. It is very difficult raising someone elses children. I raised my husbands 2 boys, and would do it again but differently if I had to do it over again. It is well worth it especially if they were to go into long term foster care. There are some great foster homes but also a few that aren't so great, I am sorry to say. I am glad you are feeling better than last week. There is a bad flu going around our area now also, I am keeping my fingers crossed I don't get it. The last time I had to weigh in for my surgeon, I made sure I had layered my clothes and wore my heaviest shoes. I have never had to worry about weighing enough before but he didn't want me to loose anymore and I had lost 14 lbs in 3 mos. so I didn't want him yelling at me. It didn't help much, he didn't yell though. I know what you mean about weighing in though, our minds haven't caught up with our bodies yet have they. Stay healthy and keep in touch. Cindy

Cindy, If you ask me I pray my parents get permanent custody but I think temporary. I think my sister and her husband need to get their heads out of you know where. The kids were lucky they got into a good foster home. The mom is a teacher and she has really worked with my nephew. When we talked to him a week ago he told us he could read and he read for us. It was good to see them my nephew told my mom and dad he was ready to come home NOW!! mom said that the baby Lisa now weighs 20 lbs and getting so big. Krystal is active in school. I am not sure if she wants to come home or not. I know she misses us but at the new school she is active there. I honestly have to say it has been good for these kids. But i miss them so much. I was told not to lose weight also and in the last 3 months i have lost 22 lbs. didnt help that i lost 11 lbs in 3 days due to the flu. so tomorrow should be interesting.... Lynda