I graduated!

I graduated today from therapy! I was able to figure out why I eat. It's for comfort, like most of us. But I realized that eating to fill that hole and eating because I like the taste are all the same. My best memories as a child are mealtimes with us all together and my parents actually paying attention to me. I realized I am not fat. I am thin. A fat person doesn't wear a size 8 or 10. Except for my tummy, I look pretty good. And as soon as I have the TT, I'll look great! I am okay with myself, I've seemed to find the peace I was looking for. I'm not really sure how I've done that, but it's happened. I've learned not to be so hard on myself when I think I've messed up. I've also learned that I really need to write down what I'm eating. I have no concept of how much I'm eating if I don't write it down. I don't eat much at a time, but when you eat all day! Not good! Next week I'm going to see my bariatric doc. He does TT for his WL patients. I know he's not a plastic surgeon. But I really trust him. And I really like him. I'm also going to see the dietician. I want to be sure I'm eating the way I should at this point. I really don't know how many calories, prot, carbs I should be doing at this point. I think part of the improvement in my mood is that I'm not so danged pooped anymore. I ordered vitamins from Susan Maria and they seem to be helping. I really do feel better. I must have been deficient in something. Good luck to everyone who is playing Powerball, but you aren't gonna win - I am! Lyn

I am glad to hear therapy is working for ya I am gonna be going to mine for awhile I think....you know me !!!! But I too feel it is working.....we are working more with my home life and lessing my anxiety at this point (guess I have lots of anxiety) ANYWAYS....I can't wait to break into my whole failure/fat person thing....give her a puzzle to solve......I do like talking to someone tho....never have liked it before....so something is right!!! I am doing better....got over my pity party and kicked myself in the bum.....back to eating better and just taking care of myself......I tryed talking my hubby into letting my order the Vistas.....I told them they are helping Lyn He says I need to clear out my medicine cupboard full of pills it little more before I re-stock it.......I have like every brand of every pill out there right now Oh well, can't win them all.....but hopefully I will get to order some soon! Are you making sure to take a little extra calcium with them?? I just heard you should still take some calcium Well I am so glad things are going good......Let us know how the PS consult goes! Take Care jesi P.S. Come to the boards more often, miss ya! P.P.S. I see that neither of us won powerball

I still take extra calcium since I have the beginnings of osteoporsis. I take 1200 mg of extra calcium with magnesium and vit D.

Lyn- I am so glad to hear that things are going better for you! Your post reminds me to set up my first appt post-op with my counselor. She has worked with several people who had the surgery and she focuses and working with women who have weight "issues". I am having a LOT of head hunger right now- at least I think that is what I am feeling because I think about eating ALL THE TIME! I even feel a little sad about not being able to join my family in eating some of our favorite dishes- I must be sad about the food because I am with them so its not that I am missing them!! I am glad your journey is back on the right track and best wishes for you. - Nan

You will be able to eat those things again once you are a little further out. For me, last Thanksgiving was liberating. I could eat a bite of everything and yet not feel the guilt of pigging out. I was satisfied and didn't feel deprived. Everything in moderation.