another set back

Just last night when i thought things were looking up for me, i starting vomitting. I had put the crushed antibiotic in applesause and i kind of gulped it down in two gups trying not to taste it. It is so vile. Then shortly after i started having this wierd stuck feeling and i tried to drink and tried to take pain meds, and i started puking. Frothy nasty stuff. I kept it up all night practically. Then this morning I was not vomitting anymore but scared to drink anything. Evidently this is a somewhat normal thing (??). I am only drinking water today and no supplements or anything. I have to face getting the antibiotic down again tonight. I'll have to try to drink it in something. The nurse at the weight reduction clinic packed my wound again today and it is better. I have to go in early tomorrow to see my surgeon because I missed my post op visit due to the weather this week. This whole thing just sucks. I regret this so horribly. I have lost almost three weeks with my family and I feel far from well, and far from normal. They told me I need an antidepressant. I'm going to see my nurse practitioner tonight and see what she thinks. I have now lost 24 pounds but I don't even care. Thanks for all the nice notes, I am glad to not be alone. jean

Oh Jean, I am so sorry you are having such a hard time! Please Please Please take heart. If I knew then what I know now... the first three weeks are the worst part and then I promise it gets better and you WILL care about your success. You should ask your nurse practitioner if they can give you a liquid form of the antibiotic you are on (or did you already do that and I am late coming into the story?). I had the worst time trying to crush meds in food because there isn't enough food to cover up the taste of the meds. The one and only time I tried it it was the same reaction. if you do try an anti-depressant, make sure they give you one that comes in liquid form. I know that Celexa is one that does and there are probably others. Please don't despair. Feel free to contact me anytime you need to vent or need an encouraging word! It WILL get better - I promise you! I felt the same regret that you are feeling now, but things are much brighter these days. 292/248/140

Jean, i understand completely. i felt horrible for a very long time. i was very depressed in the hospital. i was there for 23 days and then i had to go back again and was there another 4 days. dont feel bad for feeling this way. what helped me is talking to people that had complications. if you ever need a friend to talk to i am here for you. i went threw a stage where i wandered why i had all the complications and noone else did. but the reason is god had more planned for me and to make me stronger then before. you will someday be glad you had this surgery for me it was like 7 months out. there are still days when i wander why but then i look at my before pic and my pic now and look where i have come this past year and i know why....lynda

Don't give up! I know where you're coming from. I had an infection around the G tube and thought I was gonna die! I felt so awful I didn't care if I did die! High fever and pain. Then I broke out in an allergic rash all over my tummy from the benzoin they used to stick down the steri-strips after taking out the staples. I had open. So when they took out the G tube, everytime I moved, I gushed stomach acid all over my poor raw tummy. Talk about life sucking at that point. It does get better. I also upchucked a lot. Don't much anymore, thank goodness, unless I get stupid. Give it a month or two. It does get better and it is worth it. It is only a short time compared to the longer life you will have as a thinner, healthier person.

Hi Jean, No, you are not alone. I agree see if you can get liquid form of meds. If you gulped that probably did it to you. Just like babies we have to learn how to eat all over again. If I gulp or take in air it's a given I'll be talking to the toilet gods even now almost 9 months out. Believe me this all will pass. Remember we are here for you. Hugs Carolyn

Jean, I don't know if this will help, but when I was having to crush my meds, I took them with a sugar free popsicle. I used the plastic container that crystal lite comes in, and the tip (to the stick) of a popsicle mixed my meds into the popsicle and put it towards the back of my throat, as the popsicle melted down so did the meds, then I would follow with a bite of popsicle to kill the taste in my mouth. Good Luck to you! At one month out my doc let me quit crushing my meds...I still hate the chewable vitamins, and looking for a vitamin I can just swallow!! Hugz,Debi