Got depressed last night..

Just happend that I came across the memorial pages. While wonderful that we can mourn those who are not with us anymore, it scared the bejeezus out of me. I was crying thinking that maybe I made the wrong decision to move forward with this. I talked to my husband and a good friend on here and they both told me to think of the positives. I've always believed that if it was my time to go I'd go, no matter what I did. Probably didn't help much that I have bronchitis and on two new meds. I will quit having my pitty party now.. thanks for 'listening' Trac

Traci' It is scarey and I doubted my self and I cried all the way to the hospital the morning of surgery I was scared and everyone is. The thing you have to keep in mind is that some people have other underlying causes that contributed to their death and as long as you are educated going into this surgery and your docter has a good pre op and post op program and follow up care you will be in good hands. I had my surgery March 4 of this year and have lost 130 pounds and I feel so much better now. I haven't had an easy 9 months recently found out I have colitis and that is why I had had bad diarrhea. But Dr got me on proper medication and that aspect of my body is much better now. I think back on how unhealthy and miserable I was when I was morbidly obese and look at how my life has change for the best. It really is a positive thing and always remember that it is a tool that along with proper nutrition and exercise you will be healthier and of course smaller. I went from 4x down to a size 12 and I now wear medium shirts. I don't get short of breath or anything anymore. This web site is an excellent support site and I don't get on the computer as much as I use to and I know I should so I can give support to others as others have done for me. I wish you well and hope this helps if even a little. We've been there. Good Luck Kim

Morning Traci, What you are feeling is quite natural. I also think it's nice there is a Memorial Page but think I've only visited it once. Keep positive thoughts! I still say (preach) that it isn't the surgery, it's the co-morbids that causes deaths. Did you watch Dateline last night? I don't think you've made the wrong decision! Anytime you feel the need to talk don't hesitate to post that's what we are here for Hugs Carolyn

Hiya Tracie...Hang in there, what you are going through is very normal, we have all been there! Have faith and know that you are doing this to get healthy and no matter what it is in Gods hands!!! We are here for ya through it all, so don't hestitate to call on us! Hugs, Janet Schmidt

What you are feeling is perfectly normal, most of us who have had this surgery have felt the same feelings. I got upset several times prior to my surgery, it was nerves, I think it is absolutely ok to feel that way and to get upset. It shows that we are normal, in the very important decision in having surgery, you do have to think of the pros and cons. You are just a normal person and you will be absolutely fine. Good luck. Tamara

Tracie, Good afternoon, it is very scary hearing or reading about deaths esp when you are going in to have this surgery. I have to say i am very blessed to be here these days. see i almost died 3 times during three of my four surgeries. so you want to talk about scared and thinking i made the wrong desicion yeah i was there and done that. at one point i wished they could go in and do this surgery but the fear of actually dieing during that one. one thing i did before i had surgery was i wrote letters to everyone. well those people never got those letters and i am here and talking about what happen. you will go threw lots of emotions before the actual day comes and that is why you come on here and we will help you threw it. it is ok to be scared..i will tell you i am now so thankful i had this surgery and i would do it again......lynda

Thats kind of ironic I was reading the memorial page last night too... it's kind of like a train wreck... you don't want to look but you can't stop yourself. It made me question things... like at the doctors office I told them I wasn't sure if I snored (I sleep alone) but I pretty sure that I do... maybe I should tell them... I dont know if it has anything to do with anything... I also have what feels like gas pains in my chest sometimes.. maybe I should have told them that too. I still want this surgery more than anything, but it's so hard to think that I could die. My surgeon is highly recommended and I'm in good health.. so I keep reminding myself of that.