Word of Encouragement

I need help. I feel like I'm loosing the battle. I want this weight to come off so badly. I honestly try to be good but then something happens. Will this ever get easier. I am an emotional eater. I am a bundle of nerves trying to get this weight off. I need some help. I have some serious PMS and I can't stay away from the chocolate. I did loose 1 lb in two days and that was with eating my chocolate. I have NEVER been on to weigh in every day and I have weighed in twice this week. I am freaking out. I want this surgery so bad. Has anyone else experienced this? I wanted to have this done the end of Oct first part of Nov for reasons of my job, but if I don't get this weight off, what am I going to do? Any ideas, please email me. Thanks, Michelle

Don't know if I can really help but I will try. This road you are embarking on will have its bumps and valleys and now it the time you need to learn to deal with the bumps and valleys without turning to food. It can be done but let me be the first to tell you that some days is is pure h#ll. I too am an emotional eater - I think since I was 2 years old. I eat when I am happy, sad, nervous, calm, tired, energized - anyway any excuse will do! Now I think when I grab something I know I shouldn't be putting in my mouth. Sometimes I don't even realize that it is going into my mouth until I have already swallowed it! Nothing like unconscious eating for making you feel disgusted with yourself. I am 6 months post-op and still dealing with the emotional eating. Like I said I try to catch myself and I make myself put whatever the food item is back in the cupboard or in the garbage! Yes, even on our extremely tight budget I have thrown away food! With our Daughter and her family living with us there is more 'wrong' food in the house and it is an almost constant struggle. But I have been given a second chance with a wonderful tool to finally be thin. It doesn't help that I have been on a stall for the last month. Mostly unwise food choices but I have made the decision that October will be a month to celebrate when 10-15 more pounds disappear. Keep you chin up. No person can be perfect 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. Do the best the You can be for every minute that you can and don't beat yourself up for not being perfect. Putting a deadline on yourself for losing that amount of weight is very hard to deal with. Everytime that I have ever given myself a deadline to lose x amount of weight in x amount of time was like opening Pandora's box or should I say refrigerator and all I did was crave everything I was trying not to eat. It always worked better for me to make small changes at a time 'cause low and behold those little changes add up to big results. My best wishes are for you and your little guy. Do this for yourself and the rest of your life will fall into place as the Lord has designed it for you. Blessings on you and prayers for you in your struggle at this time. Peace & Love, Carol

Wow, Michelle, Carol really said it all. I did not have to get a certain amount of weight off before surgery, but I did have to go on a low carb diet 2 weeks prior and that meant during Thanksgiving! It was hard, but I was able to have control. Try to find that control now - you will need to build it up during the course of your journey. (If you're like me, chocolate won't be in the picture anymore because I dump on everything - even if it's sugar free!) You can do this. Like Carol said, take one day at a time. If you mess up - don't beat yourself up - just accept that you lost control - wrestle it back and get going on doing what you're supposed to do again. It's not easy, but the hard work is well worth it!! Hang in there - I'll say a prayer for you as well. God bless, Andrea