Anybody else???

For the past four days I have been in a real bad mood. Bad enough that people have noticed. Usually I cover real well. My kids are visiting the grandparents so my mood should be good. Then today it hit me. I am pissed because I can't loose the weight on my own. I am a strong smart women who handles several tasks a day. I have a full time job, a husband that travels for his work so I do my work load at home and his. I handle at least 10 crisises a day. So why do I need help for this? I'm ready for the surgery in mind and spirit but this mood I did not understand. Till today. My surgery is next Friday and the closer it comes the madder I get. Has any one else gone through this?

Whoa girl- go easy on yourself! Sounds like you are carrying a full load! You do not have to be superwoman, nor do you have to beat yourself up for trying! As I have told others, I think a lot of this browbeating we go through is just fear of changing what has become a secure and comfortable lifestyle, healthy or not. The fear and pain of surgery will be over in a short while, but we will have to live with this decision the rest of our lives. And human nature fights against change, good or bad. You may be more stressed out about this than you think- your busy life just prevents you from dwelling on it. Take some time just for you. Without kids or hubby, get a massage or facial, go sit in a hot tub. RELAX!! There's usually SOMETHING that can be neglected or postponed to allow that. You won't have a choice during and after surgery! It sounds like you are a person who is very organized and wants every detail attended to. Surgery will temporarily take that control away and afterward you will have to focus on YOU to learn how to manage your new lifestyle.

Geesh, I hear ya Deanne. I want to beat myself up for regaining 15-20 lbs after being at my all time adult low weight. I know, I am an adult and can multitask, speak in front of a large group of people and so on, but why can't I get a handle on my weight and food issues. And, this is all after 2 years post op and 2 surgeries. Unfortunately the bypass or obesity surgery does NOT cure this. I need a lobotomy for that.