Thanks friends......

Hello out there to all my Iowa Amos Friends, I just wanted to say thanks for the encouraging words you sent my way, my problems with my hubby have not changed and I just wish I could understand, but he wont discuss it with me. In the beginning he said if this was gonna make me happy I should do it, why should he care, he weighs a measly 135! now, he is all mad cause im gonna be smaller and thinks im gonna leave, well I could have left a long time ago, fat and all, but I didn't, I could have left when he beat me, but I didn't, I could have left when he cheated, but I didn't, maybe without his support, I might! But I love this idiot for some reason, 12 years is along time, is he really afraid of loosing me because im skinnyer or does he not want me to be healthy? I am so confused, I am scared to death and surgery is only a week away, my hubby is being a jerk, I think to get me to change my mind, but I AM NOT GONNA!!! He can deal with it or get over it, im doin this, but I am so scared!!!!!6 days and a wake up, till im under the knife, and I'm terrified!!!!

I wish that you had more support, I KNOW you would heal better and be happier. You have to do what is best for yourself and your health, and hopefully he will come around and realize that you love him regardless of what weight you are. I hope everything goes smoothly for you in 6 days, make sure you have someone keep us updated!! Who is doing your surgery? Do you have anyone posting updates for you? Take care! ~Julie